Barbie Transformation

What if he already has?

(VERY SORRY, WAS AWAY FOR AGES ON BOOT CAMP FOR BBALL. this is the longest I haven't updated, I think six days or so. Anyway, here's what you've been patiently waiting for! Shout out to Janellephant :3 Is this chapter long enough? Thank yous!!
Xoxo M.E)

"Why didn't you tell me that Felix raped me?" I ask Thea in a depressed, monotone voice.
She sighs sadly and looks around the park, "I was going to, but I just didn't have the guts. I knew all along it was him, but I didn't think you'd trust me anymore since I didn't tell you in the beginning. If I could reverse time, the first thing I'd do is stop Felix or tell you that he did it. I'm sorry."
I shake my head, "You say you want to be my friend, but how is that even possible when I can't even trust you because you never tell the truth?"
Thea rests her elbows on her knees while we sit on the bench, letting her purple hair fling around her face in shame. "I was scared," she whispers and I raise my eyebrows, "You were scared? Wow. It's not like you're the one that was nearly raped, and you're certainly not the person who has to go to war against a psychotic bitch who doesn't understand the meaning of forgiveness." I scoff and she rolls her eyes at me, "I know, I know. I just meant that... I don't really know how to treat a friend. I've never actually had one. I was afraid that if I told you the real truth, you wouldn't want to be my friend. You have to know that I never meant for this to happen."
I'd be a hypocrite if I said I don't forgive Thea. I'd pretty much be mirroring Zara's actions towards my brother, and that just isn't fair.

"I forgive you." I exclaim and she sits up in her seat, staring at me in bewilderment, "really?"
"On one condition: I want you to tell me every single secret you know about and promise not to keep things or tell lies me."
She beams, "Deal, orange peel!"
I give her a confused expression, "orange peel?"
She shrugs with a smile, "I felt like rhyming."

I roll my eyes in amusement, "Okay. What secrets do you know about?" I change the topic and ask her directly.

She bites her lip in thought and I tip my head in anticipation, "Everyone in our group went to Landon High-school a few years back or so." I recall the school name because I remember Jasper going there. After my parents separation, Max forcefully moved Jasper to that school.
"And Brody was in our group too." My eyes go wide in shock, Brody? Why was he in their group? I thought he was scared of them...?
"That was until he announced that he was gay. Everyone pretended they were cool with it, but I could tell that Zero and Kaysil were uncomfortable around him. Zara thought it would be funny to fool with Brody's feelings, so she dared Kaysil to lead him on. Since everyone kind of looked up to Zara like a god, he obliged. He pretended to like Brody and pushed it over the edge when he told him that he loved him. Brody loved Kasyil. Kaysil didn't love Brody, it was all a phony. Kaysil told Brody that he had to announce their love in the cafeteria or else he wouldn't believe his feelings. Brody did it and he was humiliated. Kaysil told the entire school that he didn't love Brody and that it was all a set up. Brody was heart broken and angry. That's why Brody is afraid of Kaysil- he had made his life utterly miserable I'm highschool and was afraid it would be even worse for him at this college."
I can't believe it.
"Why didn't Brody just go to a different college?" I ask and she shakes her head, "he got a scholarship for ballet here, so this was his only option."

"That's awful. Poor Brody. He's so nice, I never would have thought he'd been hurt like that." I exclaim and Thea nods in silence.

A few moments of silence pass as we think about Brody in dismay. "There's also something else you should know about..."

I lift my head up to look up at Thea in curiosity.
"What is it?"

Thea frowns, "No wait. I probably shouldn't tell you. Nevermind."
I gape, "You have to tell me, you can't just do that!"

She laughs uncomfortably, "It'll ruin your friendship...."
"I'm quite sure anything else can't ruin our friendship after all we've been through." I state dryly.

"Not our friendship..." She states and I raise a brow in question.

"Zero likes you!" She blurts out and then looks away from me.

What the fuck?
"No he doesn't...?" I say in a hopeful tone.
"Yes he does..." She squeaks.

I pull my blue strands in consideration. Those glares he sent Felix when he put his arm around me... His concern for me when I was nearly raped. His worry for me when I told him I had already been raped...

"Oh fuck! This seriously can't happen right now." She winces at my outburst but nods.

Oh crap... What if I hurt his feelings and he goes back to Zara? What if I use his feelings accidentally to my advantage? I'd never want to hurt someone like the way Zara did to Thea. I love Hunter, but I don't know what position we are in at the moment.

Zero is nice and is attractive... But I'm not sure we'd work well together. He's emo, I'm not. I'm not being stereotypical, but I can't understand why someone who loves black would like person who wears bright things? It's like telling a whale and dolphin to get married- but I dibs not being the whale.

It's strange. Abnormal, perhaps?

However... This could be my new chance to be happy. What if Zero really is the guy of my dreams and I've just been imagining Hunter like that. What if I have it all wrong?

Maybe Hunter has been fogging my conscious so much that I don't realise what really makes me happy and what doesn't.

I'm committed to Hunter though.
I love him.

But what if I don't? What if that was apart of my imagination too? What if Zero makes me happier?

Is it worth a try?
Is it worth letting go our months of love, but not I-Love-You's? That hasn't happened with Hunter and I, so maybe it belongs with another person.

Emmerson, you are making the worst decision in your entire life. Hunter loves you so much- you're like two peas in a pod. You belong together. Don't just let everything go.

But what if he already has?

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"Why didn't you tell me that Kaysil did that to you?" I continue the conversation with Brody, Thea and...Zero.
My sentiments are undecided yet because I'm torn between choosing Hunter and Zero even though my heart is tugging towards Hunter.
"I guess I was a little ashamed and I didn't really want to walk through that door again. It was a bad experience." He says softly, not giving any eye contact.
I smile kindly, "You don't have to be ashamed. You did nothing wrong. I hope these two pricks didn't do anything to you, though?" I ask, pointing towards a scowling Thea and a blank Zero.
Thea shakes her head, "I'm not that low, bitch." She butts in and I chuckle at her foul language.
"No, it was just Zara, Kaysil and Felix. Mostly Kaysil though. He loved to make me feel insignificant- made him seem powerful, I guess." Brody shrugs and I frown. I would hate to feel like that.

Lightbulb.

"Why don't we get our revenge?" I ask in a cheerful tone and everyone's eyes sparkle with interest. "Revenge?" They all synchronise.

"Well, I mean... I have some experience with pranks," I exclaim, referring to when Hunter and I pulled those pranks on Cadance, Sunny and Carly... And the principal. I smile while recalling the memories.
"How much experience?" Thea asks and I shrug, "Not to brag or anything," I smirk, "But I pulled a few pranks on some sluts at school, ended up accidentally shooting my principal with a water gun and got suspended."
Zero is the first one to crack a large grin as the other ones remain dumbstruck.
"Well... That was unexpected." Thea chuckles and Brody grins, "who would have known that there was a devil under all that innocence."
I beam at him, "I wouldn't say I'm a devil... But you know, that was pretty badass."
Thea laughs, "Cocky, are we? Stop with the flattery already. I want to talk about revenge on Zara and her minions."
Leave it to Thea to be the serious one.

"Right. So I was thinking..."