Consumed By You |Shawn Mendes|

Honest

I heard his small deep breathes that he would take every so often in his sleep and it was the sweetest sound to wake up to.

I turned over to face the beautiful man that I had ever only dreamed of ever being this close with. But here he was, he had traveled just to check in on me even after I was such a raging bitch to him the last time we saw each other.

Why did I do that?

Because your an insecure emotionally unstable fuck who is so terrified of allowing anything good to ever have a fighting chance. So you do what you know best, ruin it and run away. He isn't Antonio, he's not going to get you all out of your comfort zone and then shatter you from the inside out. I mean hell im pretty sure he's out of his own comfort zone, like when have you ever heard of Shawn Mendes with any girl aside from that Hailey Baldwin debacle that I'm pretty sure Shawn has no idea how to explain it himself. But here he is trying, chasing you. He let it go last night because it was your birthday and it's a emotional time without your mom but for him to have apologize for nothing he did, you can't let that happen.

I felt him moving around on the bed and I just watched him in such awe as he placed his hand on his chest and turning his face towards my direction.
Eyes still closed and his perfect lips closed just showing his light pink pout. The little bit of sun that crept into the room resting on his exposed chest. I just wanted to hold this moment forever in my mind.

After a few minutes of me just staring at him I got up and headed to my bathroom and I took a quick shower so I can make him breakfast.

More like "I'm sorry I'm emotionally unstable" breakfast and "thank you for an amazing birthday"

After I got dressed in some biker shorts and his sweater that I may or may not have forgotten to give him back. I placed my hair in a bun and I decided to make pancakes, scrambled eggs, with bacon and of course I put some coffee to make. I had some music playing lowly in the background to keep me company.

I wanted Shawn to get rest, I'm sure he doesn't get as much as he needs. Plus I felt guilty for playing a part in that because I'm sure he was tired of all the traveling he was obligated to do so for him to just add me in, made me feel like shit more.

I was about done cooking the last of the bacon when I heard the bathroom door open and then close.

Shawn's awake.

Jesus does he even know what to sleep in is?

I looked over at my coffee pots clock.

10:45am

"Smells good in here." He said walking into the kitchen.

He just got out the shower, he had his slacks on from last night but he was shirtless and his hair was slicked back.

God he looked way to good.

"Do you know what it is to actually sleep?" I said smiling and turning back to face the sizzling bacon on the frying pan.

"Nope. But I did get a great sleep." He said rubbing his eyes and walking over to the island table in the middle of the kitchen and sitting down and taking his phone out.

"I'm glad." I said turning the stove off and placing the last few bacons on a plate to sit.

I took Shawn his plate and coffee, walking over to him and putting it in front of him and giving him a quick kiss on his cheek.

"Hi." I said as I turned to walk back and he grabbed me by my arm turning to face him.

He cupped his hand over my cheek and he kissed me tenderly.