Consumed By You |Shawn Mendes|

Unexpected Visitors

I couldn't believe i took a midnight flight to Toronto.

I decided to come and return the surprise visit to Rose.

She seemed to be worried about me because i had grown a little distant since moving into my apartment and all. I mean i was distant but not with just her it was as a whole, much to my surprise i even found myself slowly distancing myself from Shawn as well. I was just trying to focus on getting back to myself in work and thats what i dedicated most of my time to, as well as therapy and yoga.

With New Years coming up I wanted to get out and have some type of fun with my best friend and just reconnect, so what better way.

Unfortunately I forgot how blistering cold it was right now. I pressed my thin windbreaker jacket against my chest as I waited of my Uber outside of Toronto Pearson International Airport. It felt so weird walking through the airport because the only time I ever really saw it was when Shawn would take photos and videos with his fans on all the update account pages I stalked here and there.

Shawn.

I hadn't spoken to him since Christmas when he sent me the lovely flowers and card. I kind of made it a mental note to try not to be wrapped in everything Shawn Mendes, only because I knew that was something I would do out of habit when everything in my life was currently falling apart.

Why?

Because as much as I hated to admit it, I was so consumed by him and still when everything happened after Malibu I used those moments with him to get me through the nightmares I had everyday.

I got into my Uber and headed towards Rose's place. I hadn't though out how i was going to just pop out but I was just holding that the goods were on my side at this point in time. I was about 20 minutes away from where her condo was, and I decided to text her just to check up on her without making it to obvious.

Y: Hey, just checking on you. How are you?

R: Hey mama, I'm okay just getting ready to hang out with John. He surprised me early. Is everything okay? How are you?

Shit, just my luck. I wasn't going to say anything about me popping up on her unexpectedly cause she would drop her plans and I didn't want that.

Think Yvette.

Y: that's amazing! Have all the fun babes tell me all about it ! I was just checking on you, miss you is all. But have all the fun please for the both of us.

R: of course mama 😜❤️ miss you too. We'll catch up tomorrow! Love ya.

Y: love ya ❤️

I quickly looked for a hotel that I could stay in for a night and thankfully there was a few near Rose location. So once my Uber dropped me off I quickly ran to the bus depo in front of her condo and headed to my hotel.

I was now in a hotel room alone, and completely out of my element and it was a Tuesday night and I know there was some type of bar or something I could hit up because I wasn't going to let this small hiccup bring me down.

Two hours later.

After about thirty minutes of trying to find somewhere to go I found a small bar club type to come too, After getting to the bar it looked seemingly slow still I looked at my watch and saw it was still only 10:30pm, time change was messing me up so much but I would get the hang of it. As I waited for my drink at the bar I decided to finally make an update on my Instagram page, making sure I used my LA location of course.