Consumed By You |Shawn Mendes|

Too Late

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This has been literally all I saw and heard for the past few days. 

Simon had called me to reassure me that this is just part of being famous and having a famous ex. 

"I really hate this Rose, and none of it is true. We aren't rekindling anything." I said throwing my head on to Roses lap and letting out a huge sigh. 

"I mean you two have a history short lived or not, you guys are-were in love and that was huge for him. The world finally got to see him with someone after all the years of speculation." Rose said playing with my hair as she sipped on her ice coffee. 

I sighed again and I looked over at the beautiful Brooklyn skyline that was showcasing from my  living room. 

This was one of the reasons I shelled out all the money for this place, the view was beautiful hands down. Reminded me of Shawn's condo, his view was to die for honestly.

 He had Toronto And I had Brooklyn. 

I understood the peace it brought, I would catch myself being mesmerized for hours at the view when I felt overwhelmed by work, or just the city overall.

"Well were just trying to be friends, why cant that just be it? I never wanted to be that girl and now I'm not or I wasn't till he came here unannounced. Ugh, this is all so annoying. How do you deal with it Rose? I mean john is so incognito as it is so I mean its easier I can imagine." I looked up at my bestfriend. 

"He came here for you Yvette. Why is it everyone can see that but you? He will say anything to have you back in his life. I'm just saying. And me and john we just live our everyday lives and don't allow the outside world or the media dictate us or who we are to one another. I love him and he loves me so what if the world sees that or doesn't. He is still John Mayer and I'm Rose our job titles are just for clickbait." Rose spoke with such confidence and righteousness. 

I stood silent and I just looked at the view and I closed my eyes and I just remembered when I was with Shawn and it all felt like a lifetime ago. 

I missed how we would laugh at nothing and everything, he understood my moods sometimes better then I did at times. He always made me feel so safe and secure when he was with me, he was always so considerate and the amount of empathy he felt was like he went through things with me even when he hadn't. 

Could we ever be that again?

Or better?

I sat up and pulled my hair back, "Geez Rose, shade much?" I teased poking her and making her look at me with a raised eyebrow and a smile. 

"I'm just saying." She shrugged. 

We both stood in silence looking at the Brooklyn view. 

"I still love him." I said lowly with a hint of hurt in my tone. 

"I know." Rose said with such sympathy that It made the tears I was hiding just spill out.