You Know My Name, Not My Story

Something Old XX: Back In Town

Philip's POV

I couldn't believe the reason why Alice was upset with me. I love her with my whole heart, I trust her more than I trust myself but it hurts me to know that she doesn't trust me.

The reason I left the house was because I was getting ready mad and I didn't wanted to hurt Alice. That's the last thing I could ask for.

I went to the veranda and sat down until the sun went down.

I stayed there until the moon showed up and I didn't wanted to go back because I was just not ready to have a big talk but then suddenly I heard some light footsteps cracking wood.

I turned back and Alice was standing in front of me with her nightgown.

"Hey..." she said quietly. She seemed really empty inside. I've never seen her like that.

"Hi..." I said.

We both sighed.

"Philip, I'm so sorry, I've been so dumb, I was unreasonable and I keep on messing everything up, I still don't know how you manage to stay with me and my personality, I'm just a horrible person and I know it and I need to improve myself." she let out some tears drop of her eyes but immediately wiped them out.

"Alice, stop that, you are not a horrible person, you are my person. I love you so much and I trust you with my whole heart and life but—I don't feel like you do." I said calmly.

"It's hard for me to trust anyone. But I trust you, I really do, I just—sometimes I get too paranoid and only think about myself. But there is no way I could ever not trust you." she said without any hesitation.

"You might need some explanations about what happened with all that Daisy situation..." I started.

"Her mother is sick and she has to work twice the amount of she was before. She's going through hard times and I was just letting her know that I was supportive about her and that I'd like to meet up with her as soon as I come back in America so I might help her before leaving to King's College." I said.

Alice just stayed in all her emotions with a dash of shock.

"I'm so sorry, I can't believe myself, I'm the worst." she mumbled.

"I should've told you though, what I did seemed a little suspicious and I was scared that you'll have a reaction like the one you had. That's why I tried to keep it secret but you would've understood it if I told you. I was the dumb one here." I said and I sighed.

"We had a lot of ups and downs since we started dating...Why are we like this?" she asked me.

"I don't know. I guess before, we were just best friends, we didn't care about who we were seeing and talking to and we didn't get jealous and possessive about each other." I said.

"I love you so much that I'm scared to loose you. I'm scared that you would find someone else and leave me." she said deeply.

I approached her and gently held her hands.

"I would never leave you, no matter what, I'll always be with you until death tear us apart." I said in all confidence.

"Me too. Please let's not fight again. I can't stand us being apart." she said.

We then hugged and went back inside.

We went to bed and I finally had a good sleep.

The next days went pretty well and we had the biggest fun before returning back in America.

~September, 1799, America~

Alice and I were packing for college. I was very excited but devastated that she was going away. I couldn't imagine a life without her.