Save Me Break Me || MYG

The Memories Eleven - Ticking Clock, Never Forget

I could hear my own watch ticking. It's the only sound that matters now.

But I don't have much time left.

I was losing my mind as each second passed. I cannot differentiate imaginary from reality at this point. But every single time I breathe, I could catch Emily's scent, it's almost sitting right next to me.

I developed a habit of hitting my head against something hard, which the boys found reproachful. But I needed physical intervention to clear my head.

Finally, the much awaited ring of the bell blared throughout the entire school.

Time to go home.

I never got to see Mia again. Maybe she went home early. I'll just have to ask Ms. Keen, but I hope she'll have the courage to come to school again tomorrow.

As I drove home, enjoying solitude, I passed by the places where Emily and I would go to, the streets we walked, the flower path she admired. Thinking about those memories made my heart warm and ache at the same time. I'm glad we made those memories together, but I wish we could have made even more.

I hugged my mom from behind as I entered the house and into the kitchen. No words needed to say. I closed my eyes and rested my chin on her shoulders, as she reached one hand to caress my face. She knew I was suffering, again.

"I'll call you when dinner is ready, Yoongibear."

"Love you, Mom."

"I love you more..." then I let her go.

I never want run away from my problems, but this time I needed an escape. Everything was becoming unbearable, it was hard to breathe.

I thought about Emily a lot, her beautiful face, her elegance, the way she comforts me, her sweet voice singing me to sleep, her warm embrace.

God, I miss her so much.

So many memories came flooding my brain. I laid on my bed and closed my eyes to stop the tears from falling.

I tried to scoop out memories from my mind, like throwing a pebble into a murky pond, stirring the dirt collected in its bed and scattering them throughout the watery space.

As I let my mind swim into the vast dark ocean of resurfacing memories, I caught her scent once more, taking me back to that day when we never held back feelings, freely letting them flow and entwine with each other's desires.

That beautiful night was unforgettable...

Our first night together...

First of everything...

Our first love...