Save Me Break Me || MYG

The Memories Thirty Four - Confessions of a Healing Heart

Evidently, I couldn't control myself from wanting to be near her. How can I, she's a walking disaster! She returned to her clumsy self in a matter of days without me. And as soon as the whole school learned about it, rumors spread like wildfire, that Poly successfully claimed me, and Mia broke up with me. Now the boys start flocking around Mia again.

It did hurt when she said to my face she doesn't need me in her life, but I deserved it. I may have dealt with Poly incorrectly, and given her the wrong impression, thus everything turned ugly and chaotic.

I didn't really give a damn if she keeps hating on me or pushing me. I'd still be around. For the most obvious reason. I love her.

Every single day for the last week, I'd corner her, but the girl's got impecable skills in evading. Despite the traps or the dead ends I carefully set up, she'd manage her way out.

So that one time she was talking to herself, I caught her offguard, I took advantage and jumped in front of her.

"Mia, Can we please talk? We need to discuss this."

She did not stop walking, almost crashing into me, "I don't think this is the right time-"

Before she could scurry away, I grabbed her arm and spun her around, caging her between my arms, letting her back hit the wall. "This is the perfect time."

"Yoongi, let's not do this. I have nothing to say, I don't know," she pleaded as she placed her hands on my chest to put a distance between us, but I pressed on even harder. I knew she'd run away if she had a chance, so I will not give it to her.

I held both her wrists, firmly enough to keep her still but soft enough as to not hurt her.

"I don't want you to say anything right now, I just need you to hear me out. I'm sorry for hurting you. You never gave me a chance to explain what happened to Poly and I. Mia, it meant nothing to me. I wish you came sooner to see how persistent she was, but I kept pushing her away.

"Then everything worsened when I told you I have fallen for you. You grew distant, cringing each time you catch me staring at you. I can't blame you, but I don't regret confessing to you how I truly felt.

"At first it was just all about the chase. It was a rather exciting experience for me. It felt so good watching an elusive girl such as youself evade, it was a challenge that was turning into an addictive game.

"But I guess I was the one who fell into my own traps. I'm falling even more in love, and I can't help it. I'm so in love with you, Mia. You're all I think about every second of my waking days, even when I close my eyes, it's still you that I see. I'm bound by your spell. Is is even safe to ask what you've done to me?

"This isn't about physical attraction anymore. My whole being, my soul, my heart, it answers only to you. I can't explain it, but you have the greatest control over me. Can't you see it? Can't you even feel that I'm head over heels for you?

"Yes I was scared to get into a relationship before because of a past I cannot let go, because I have obligations. But now, with you, I'm not scared anymore. I let my guard down and feel for you. It's so frustrating because you can't see everything I do for you.

"Please, give me a chance. Let me take care of you. Let me love you. Please..." the desperation in my voice undeniable. Yes, I was desperate for her, for her alone, to a point where my duties for Emily seemed to be only a backdrop to this new canvass of relationship I was painting, with Mia as now the subject. I feel guilty, and sorry for my dearest Emily, but I have to fight for this.

Mia stayed silent, unyielding, her eyes unfocused, as if switching from a certain target to another.

"Yoongi, I have to go," she tried to push one more time, but I did not move.

"Answer me honestly, and I will never bother you again."

I was afraid to hear her reply, because I know how stubborn she can get.

"Do you really want me to stay away from you? Is that what you want?"

"Yes. I don't want to have anything to do with you."

My forehead went crashing onto the hard wall, nearly missing Mia by just centimeters. I had no choice but to let her go. As soon as I released her, she ran. For the second time, I let her slip away.