Shawn Mendes imagines

If I can't have you

Backstory: You dated Shawn for 2 years but broke up with him because you couldn't manage the long distance relatshionship.

Italics mean y/n thoughts :)

Y/n pov

Another day without Shawn. And it felt pretty damn horrible without him. I've known him since we were 3, at first we were friends, thn best friends then in high school i developed a crush on him but did my best to hide it. It wasn't until 2 years ago i finally admitted my feelings to him. Dating him was the best feeling in the world. He made me feel loved. He made me feel wanted. He made me feel protected. Although i loved him and the truth is i still do, but i wanted better for him. I mean why would he date me. Yes I was a famous model. Yes I did earn good money. But why would he fall in love with me. I felt as if my heart was breaking. I regret breaking up with him. I felt broken and sad. I thought maybe Shawn felt the same way but BOY WAS I WRONG. His Instagram consisted of him smiling on the beach where we used to go or sitting on the park bench where we used to watch the sunset, or playing his guitar in the same studio where I watched him become the famous popstar he is today. I buried my head into the pillow and sighed, hoping to fall into a deep sleep. After around 5 minutes my phone buzzed. That's weird who on earth texts at this early. It was Andrew, Shawn's manager. Great! What does he want? I picked the to read the message it read... ( bold writing is Andrew the other writing is you)

Hey y/n sorry if I woke you I need to ask you something.

Urgh Andrew its the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

Y/n its 10:30am

Exactly, I should be sleeping but anyways what is it is something wrong.

No... well yes I dont really know yet but I need you in the studio, Shawn's been acting really upset and distance ever since your break up.

Really Andrew because he seems pretty damn happy whenever he posts pictures on Instagram.

Y/n trust me he's not the same.. those smiles are just to hide the sadness he's feeling. Please y/n if not for him do it for me please 

... fine when do you need me.

Is now okay.

Yeah it wasn't as if I was about to get a well needed sleep or anything.

Sorry about that

Its okay im just kidding

Oh and make sure you don't tell Shawn I told you too come over.

K see you there.

I began to get ready. I looked into my wardrobe and began to pick an outfit.  I wore a white crop top with a matching white skirt. When I was finally happy with my look I headed outside into my car, quickly making sure no paparazzi were around. After 25 minutes I finally arrived. I took a deep breath as I began to feel nervous seeing Shawn again. God damn you y/n stop feeling so nervous. You and Shawn are over. It's your fault, now you gotta live with it.  I took a step in and made my way to Shawn's studio. I sent Andrew a quick text notifying him that i'd arrived. As I was about to enter, I quickly stopped myself as I heard Shawn and Brain talking. I know I shouldn't be listening but I just felt an urge which made me do it anyways. 

"Brain, I just can't stop thinking about her, she's beautiful, kind and just brilliant and I know she feels the same way."

My heart shattered as I heard those words. He's moved on y/n with someone that's not you. At least he's happy.

"I know how you feel man, you just gotta man up and tell her that not me"

"I made a song for her, its all about how I can't live without her."