i finally came out to my family as trans.
they're mostly accepting,
but they don't understand it.
my mom doesn't want me to go on testosterone
or get top surgery
because she thinks it's a phase.
my dad doesn't believe in transgenderism.
but they respect my wishes,
and have agreed to call me by my preferred name, at least.
i'm happy.
i feel relieved.
but there is a tightness in my chest that wasn't there before.
i don't understand it,
i should be happy, after all.
but the change is scary.
is it the change?
is that what is making my chest tighten up?
i don't understand it.
but i know things will get better with time.
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i got a new phone,
and my mother called me "he".
i felt so happy.
i felt so relieved.
but my chest was tight.
i don't understand it.
i don't understand it.
i don't understand it.
it's okay though,
because eventually,
everything gets better with time.
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everything changes (but we all stay the same)
Poetryif my life could be replayed, if i could share my struggles over the course of time, if i could create such a thing, an endless recording of my life; it would be over hours and hours of overthinking. - (trigger warning for frequent, graphic descr...
