everything changes (but we all stay the same)

fake love

for you, i could have done anything.

i would have given everything for you.

i gave you all my love,
all the art i could make,
all the tears i could give.

but you never truly took them to heart, did you?

because your love was fake.
you never loved me.

i was just a pretty concept to you,
you loved the idea of loving someone and being loved.

then you realized your true feelings,
and now i am haunted by your fake love.

you are a ghost to me, but your heart felt real.
i guess i was the gullible one.

i don't know if i hate you.
i say i do, but i'm not sure if i truly mean it.

i loved you when you left me,
and it tore me to pieces,
and nobody is here to pick up the shards of me.
nobody is here to put me back together,
and i have to build a new me thanks to you.

i know i'm obsessed with you.
i know it's unhealthy,
i won't stop talking about you,
thinking about you,
checking your social media to make sure it still says "single".

i know it's unhealthy.
but i can't help but wish you never left.

i still wouldn't take you back if you wanted me,
but i know that would never happen in the first place.

i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i was never what you really wanted,
but i'm coming to realize that it wasn't my fault.

it wasn't my fault that i'm meant to love someone else.