today is a new day.
i feel relieved, like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
i no longer feel like atlas holding the sky on his back,
but i feel reborn.
i've decided to relive my life from now on.
i sometimes regress back to childhood so i can live happier.
i sometimes regress back to the time when everything went wrong, so i can fix things.
i know this isn't a normal way of coping,
but it helps get this weight off of me,
it relieves the pain.
i am reliving.
i'm reflecting on my life and making changes.
i have to get better.
i will get better.
this is no longer about anyone else but me.
i am the only one who can fix myself.
i need to learn something:
"i am not my illnesses. i am not my disorders. i am my own person, and i have to build up a personality that doesn't revolve around my misery. i am not my illnesses. i am beautiful. i am strong. i am unique. and i can do this."
i have to relearn who i am.
i have to remember what my personality is.
i have to be true.
i'm terrified, but at the same time,
i am so excited for what lies ahead from now on.
i am reliving.
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everything changes (but we all stay the same)
Poetryif my life could be replayed, if i could share my struggles over the course of time, if i could create such a thing, an endless recording of my life; it would be over hours and hours of overthinking. - (trigger warning for frequent, graphic descr...
