everything changes (but we all stay the same)

0.5 // love is beautiful

it's 4am, and i want to be in love.

i want to have someone that i can call mine.

i hate being lonely.
but it's all i've known for so long.
i realize now that i just miss the feeling of love,
not the love itself.

love is beautiful.
i want to experience that.
i want to be seen as beautiful in someone's eyes.
i want to see someone, anyone, as beautiful as love itself.

it's almost valentine's day,
and i'm alone,
and it's so unfortunate.

i don't have to be lonely.
there are people who like me,
but i don't love them,
so i don't want to be theirs.

i want to fall in love.
i want to know that somebody is there for me
cherishing me
holding me
telling me that i can make it
loving me
loving me
loving me.

love is so beautiful.

i want a piece of it.
if somebody could love me,
if i could love them back,
it would be so beautiful.

i dream about love.
i feel like i'm living in a loveless world.
i don't crush on people anymore,
and it hurts.
i feel loveless.

but love is so beautiful.

if i could have him,
everything would be beautiful.

but the world is cruel.
there are so many things that separate us.
i'm childish to even entertain the thought of loving him.

i used to fall in love so easily.
but it's like love has been stolen from me.
i don't know when,
or why it happened,
but over the years,
i've just stopped loving.

maybe it's because i stopped loving being alive.
maybe it's because i never learned to love myself.
maybe it's because i always gave so much, but rarely ever got anything in return.

this isn't about anybody.
don't make it out to be that way.
this is about love.

love is no person,
no gender,
no race,
no language,
nothing.

love is beautiful.

it's 5am, and i want to be in love.