Mismatched Paramour

CHAPTER 12

CHAPTER 12 - THE CONTRACT

I can't believe I just shared something to Vlad that is so precious from my memory. Hindi ko inaasahang sa kanya ko pa ito magagawang sabihin. Ang taong pinakaayaw ako sa lahat na halos isumpa na nya ang pangalan ko.

But I just did it. And he listened willingly without judging me from my past.

" I cried my heart for a whole week. Hindi rin ako pumasok ng ilang linggo that's why I was forced to transfer in another school. In our current school. " sabi ko.

Binabangungot parin ako hanggang ngayon ng nakaraan. I can't fall asleep everynight and I have insomia after that incident. I feel restless and depressed pero ayokong matulog that's why I prefer partying and drinking the whole night hanggang sa makatulog ako na pakiramdam ko ay wala akong problema.

And since when I started drinking? Hindi ko rin na maalala. Sinubukan kong kalimutan ng ganoong bagay pero ang mga bagay na dapat kong kalimutan ay hindi ko magawa.

Hard drinks can ease my mind at nakakatulog ako agad dahil sa kalasingan. Masasabi ko na yatang sobrang taas na ang alcohol intolereance ko at naging immune na ang katawan ko dito.

But I was hospitalized once. I was diagnosed with alcohol poisoning because of too much intake. But that doesn't stop me from drinking.

" I see." that's all he said.

We're now silently observing the night full of stars. I really like this feeling. Kahit sino naman gustong gusto ang feeling na magstargazing. If only I could stop the time, I won't mind sharing it with him. For the reason that he's so nice in this moment. Sana huwag ng bumalik ang pagiging masungit nya. I really prefer this side of him.

" That's why I hated my mother. Galit talaga ako sa kanya noon. Why did she applied me in that competition kahit ayaw ko. "

" For a normal mom that knows that her child is a genius, of course she would do that."

" But she never cared about me being a genius. Why would she bother." Kailan pa nangyari na binigyan nya ako ng aruga ng sarili kong nanay?. Not the kind of mother I have.

He looked at me with pityful eyes and I suddenly hate it.

" Hey, stop that look. I hate being petied. " I told him but he didn't stop looking at me that way. Naiinis talaga ako sa tingin nya. Yung parang naawa pero nag-iinsulto, yun talaga nararamdaman ko.

"Kung hindi ka titigil sa tingin mong yan masasapak talaga kita."

" Manhid mo rin no? At kulang ka rin sa aruga. You're immature too and selfish."

" What?!"

Okay, binabawi ko na ang sinabi kong hindi sya judgemental. Because he is!

Parang sinabi nya rin na sa akin na lahat ng negative traits. Kailan pa ako naging manhid, immature at selfish? Oo hindi ako binibigyan ni mom ng aruga pero hindi ko inaaming kulang ako sa aruga dahil pwede ko naman itong makuha sa iba.

Napalitan din naman ang kanyang tingin na parang binabalewala nya ang kanyang sinabi.

" Sabagay, you're still fifteen. I'm three years ahead of you. So it's reasonable that you're still immature."

Namumuro na yata sya sa kakalain sakin ah. What does it do with my age? Age doesn't signify maturity, it's the attitude that matters in case he doesn't know that.

"Kahit three years ahead ka sakin I still have a mind like a matured person. Advance ako mag isip no. DUH."

"You're confusing maturity from negativity. Your advance thinking leads to negativity na akala mo matured ka na mag isip. Maturity doesn't work with negativity, it stands always on what's practical."