Proving Our Love

Chapter 45 - Unbearable

* Issys's POV *

" Issy wait!", I heard him yell behind me as I walked away, not wanting to even look at him or Matt right now considering what I just found out.

" Iss please stop", he said, trying to get a hold of my hand, but failing as I turned and pulled away.

" I do not want to talk to you Harry leave me alone", I told him as he stepped in front of me.

" Issy I was only trying to protect you", he said, trying to catch his breath.

" Yea, were you trying to protect me, or yourself?", I asked, soon seeing those words caught his attention as he stepped back.

" How could you say that what are you talking about?", he questioned.

" You know exactly what I'm talking about. It's not a secret that you don't like him and so I'm sure it wasn't hard at all for you to just agree with him that he shouldn't do the procedure", I explained, watching as his eyes widened a bit.

" Do you honestly believe that I would just let him die if it wasn't something he wanted? And are you forgetting nobody likes him including yourself, but we have to set aside our personal feelings towards him in his situation. How cold do you think I am? Nobody wants to see anyone die no matter how much they may dislike them", he replied, his accent sounding a bit thick with his statement.

" I trusted you and you acted as if nothing was wrong when you purposely left me completely oblivious to the seriousness of his real situation!", I yelled.

" Issy I didn't like hiding it from you either but I thought it would help you! I hate seeing you go through this so hard especially since the miscarriage so I hid it", he said.

" Why Harry why did you have to do this I just don't get it seriously how could you. You don't get to use your pity for me as an excuse"

" It's not pity it's ....because I -", he said before pausing, running his hands through his long curly hair, letting out a deepened sigh.

" Issy", he said, wiping the tears from my face, looking into my eyes as his green ones continued to have me captivated as I remained speechless, trying to calm down, not wanting to say the next words that needed to come out, but I knew I couldn't keep this in.

" I don't know what your reason was, but with everything going on we both know this is too much on the both of us. I can't keep you from your life, because mine is a literal emotional roller coaster and you don't deserve this", I said, continuing on as he gave me a look of utter confusion.

" Issy what are you trying to say?", he asked.

" Im saying this isn't fair anymore, look at reality. You are one of the most famous people in the world, and I'm just a normal girl who is hopeless trying to find her way out of a true dysfunctional mess. I can't keep going through all this stress with Jordan, with my dad, the media, my miscarriage, college......us", I replied, watching as he looked down.

" We are two different people, I mean look at us. We never get to see each other and we have such limited time when we do. Your on tour while I'm going to college soon. Where does that leave us?", I asked him.

" I know with everything going on its hard, Issy I know it's hard but you have got to let me help you. I have never felt this way about anybody ever. Please don't say or do something that your gonna regret because of a difficult spot that we're in", he said, taking my hand.

" Im sorry, but maybe it's just better for the both of us if we just, went our seperate-

" Issy I am sorry I know I hurt you but that should be no reason to-