Proving Our Love

Chapter 50 - What Do I Do Without Him?

* Issy's POV *
" Alright so what happended?", Grace asked, watching as I took a deep breath, before speaking up.
" Okay, so I went down and visited Jordan the first day I got there. And Harry was there, and he ended up staying with me at my house during his break", I said, watching as she nodded, waiting for me to continue.
" So the next day Harry and I went to the gym and we got a call from my brother saying to rush down to the hospital, and he had told us there that he had a seizure. So when I got to go in and see Jordan, he had told me there was a procedure he could have done to remove it, but he turned down the offer. But what I had found out was that my brother and Harry already knew ahead of time that Jordan wanted to pass naturally and that he didn't want any procedure to prolong his life. So of course I was devastated that he would keep something like that from me, and I ended up saying some things out of pain that I should of never said", I explained.
" Well what things did you say to him?", she questioned.
" I said things like, maybe it'd be better if we went our separate ways, I said with everything going on its just too much on our relationship, just emotional stuff that I kept relating back to us. But I only said those things because I was still like in shock from when I found out that they both knew Jordan's decision and hadn't told me", I said, seeing she was nodding her head understandingly as I spoke.
" So, while we were conversing, my brother called me saying Jordan had wanted to see me, and I had then realized that he was on his death bed. He said what he wanted to say to me, then he passed", I told her, looking down at my lap.
" Oh my god Issy that must of been so hard to watch I can't even imagine sweetie", she responded, letting me go on.
" That night I stayed in the hospital for hours, just sitting in his room until I came out, and Harry drove me home. But the next morning I woke up in my bed, realizing I had fell asleep in the car so we never got to continue our conversation. But when I got up that morning I had tried to find him and found a note from him, knowing he had left. The next day I went to Jordan's funeral, then took a plane back here", I said, feeling guilty as I saw her sad expression.
" That must of been so difficult I can't believe that", she said.
" Sometimes I really can't either. Another crazy thing is that a few hours ago I went to the hospital again for a follow up of my ultrasound and she said all my emergency expenses were already paid for", I told Grace, watching as her jaw dropped slightly.
" My bill was almost five thousand dollars, who would pay five thousand dollars on me, just for expenses", I said. " He's crazy, I know it was him", I added, shaking my head.
" Well at least you don't have to worry about paying any bills now since they are all taken care of, that was very generous of him", she said.
" Yea I know but, I just don't get it. He won't contact me but he paid my hospital bill. What should I think about this?", I asked her.
" He hasn't contacted you since he left?", she asked me, her facial expression coming off as confused.
" No, not since the letter he left me", I replied.
" Well, I'm not gonna ask to see the letter, but the best explanation I could give you or advice, is to pay attention to what he said in the letter. Maybe that will give you some answers on why he hasn't been contacting you", she suggested.
" I thought about that too but, I don't know. You can't help but feel insecure into thinking it's something else you know? How could you just leave someone like that just for them and their needs?", I asked her.
" That's something that you have to ponder about, but it's obvious that he cares more about you than he does himself. Or else he wouldn't of done what he did and left the way he left. Only he knows the genuine reason on why he did what he did, and until he tells you, your gonna have to remain oblivious", she said.
" I figured that much, I just hate not knowing but I can't control that so, I might as well try to get my mind off it", I told her.
" Issy be honest with me, did you really want to break up with Harry at all?", she asked me. I then exhaled a big breath, shaking my head from side to side.
" No not at all, I love him why would I want to do that. It's just that with everything going on its so hard for me to prove that to him and I don't know how, I said, watching as she sent me a sympathetic smile.
" Sweetheart, it's always hard for anybody but why do you feel like you need to prove your love to him, what are you so afraid of honey?"
" T-that , he's gonna leave me for some much prettier celebrity and realize that he doesn't wanna be with a regular girl", he told her, watching as her mouth went a gape.
" Issy, how could you think like that love. He would never he's in love with you honey. Harry doesn't care whether your famous or not he wants you, not any celebrity. That's why you guys work, your what he needs just a normal girl", she said.
" I wanna think that but sometimes you can't help but think why is he with me when he could be with any other -
" He doesn't want to be with any others, that's why he was dating you. I think that's maybe why he sometimes has a bit of frustration with you, because you don't understand that, he wants you Issy", she said, making my almost sad frown into a smile, tears threatening to spill from my eyes any minute.
" Aw sweetie don't cry", she said, bringing me into a hug.
" I'm sorry, I just miss him so much and I made a horrible mistake I should of never said what I did. And then maybe this wouldn't of happended. I hurt him Grace", I cried into her shoulder.
" Yes Issy you might have, but he did what he did for you, and if you want to prove your love to him, then maybe you should try to do what he does", she told me, watching as I pulled away from our embrace.
" What do you mean?", I asked, wiping the corners of my eyes.
" He shows up out of nowhere to surprise you.....", she indicated, a smile beginning to curl upon her lips.
" Oh Grace, how can I have school I can't just chase after him, he's on tour. It's easier for him to do it then it is for me to", I said, watching as she looked up, arching her eyebrows at me.
" Think about it sweetie", she said, placing her hand reassuringly on my knee before walking out, taking Emily in her arms, leaving me to think on how I get the love of my life back.
( A/N)
Hello!!!!! I know I know sorry for the short chapter, just a filler. What do you guys think Issy should do? Should she go and try to see Harry? Do you think Harry was wrong to leave without saying goodbye? Please let me know what your thinking!!!!
And alsoooo!!!! Be honest....who listened to the leaked tracks of FOUR.....( guilty) Please vote and comment it would really make my day!!!! :) Love you guys xx
- Ari