Personal Body Guard - (Shawn Mendes)

53

"Never caught a
feelin' this hard
Harder than the
liquor I pour"

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*Emily's Point Of View*

"I'm pregnant" I mumbled under my breath, wanting nothing more than the ground to swallow me whole right now.

"Sorry what?" She asked obviously not having super hearing to hear my mumbles.

"I'm- " I began taking a deep breath. "I'm pregnant" I croaked out before falling into another fit of sobs. I didn't want to say it out loud. Saying it out loud makes it too real. I wasn't ready for a kid. I'm not ready to be a mom.

I felt the bed dip in beside me as I felt her sit beside me. Her hand instantly began to rub my back, yet still in silence.

I looked up at her to see her looking back at me with her lips pressed together as she looked at me in sympathy.

"S-say something" I managed to get out. I just needed her comforting words right now.

"Sorry I'm just in shock" she whispered looking at me but as if she was day dreaming.

"It's Shawn's isn't it?" She spoke making me look up at her, tears threatening to spill any second now.

"W-What, how?" I questioned. How did she know that Shawn and I were... anything?

"The night of the party. The way he took care of you. The way he looked at you. The way... he spoke to you. You can tell he really loves you Emily" she said making the tears instantly fall down my face.

She instantly raised her hand, using her thumb to wipe them away.

"No- please don't cry. This doesn't have to be a bad thing Em" she tried to convince me. I looked at her in bewilderment.

"Em. I've only just turned 20, I-I am not ready for a baby. To be a mom. Shawn isn't ready for that either. My parents would fucking kill me- fuck my parents" I spoke soon realising I'd have to tell my parents that I'd been knocked up. But for some reason that wasn't the scariest conversation, the discussion about Shawn being the father would be.

Would Shawn even stick around to be a dad?

"Em please open the door" I heard Shawn shout from behind the door as he knocked a few times. I sighed leaning my head forehead, my hair falling in front of my face.

"You need to speak to him Em" she said softly her finger nails raking up and down my back.

"I c-can't" I stuttered wiping my eyes from wetness.

"You can and you will Em. I'll be right outside if you need me" she said beginning to stand up.

"Wait" I said grabbing her wrist.

"What do I even say?" I asked desperately in need for some of her amazing advice she'd give.

"Just be honest. Tell him how you feel" she said making me nod slowly and smile thankfully at her.

The click of the lock was heard as she walked past a distraught Shawn, heading towards the lounge room. Shawn rushed in, shutting the door behind me with a lock.

He stood in front of me, hands on hips as he just thought of what to say. His mouth opening a few times to let words out but nothing came out.

"What are we going to do?" He whispered bending down and placing his hands on my knees.

"I don't know shawn" I whimpered my lip beginning to tremble. "I don't know" I repeated feeling a tear trickle down my cheek.

"Do y-you want to keep it?" He stuttered out making my eyes shoot straight to his. "Yes of course. I couldn't do that" I spoke feeling nauseous at the idea of killing a human being.

"J-Just please don't leave" I begged looking into his eyes. He furrowed his eyebrows, "I'm not leaving Emily. This isn't just on you. I should've taken more caution" he said his thumbs beginning to caress my thighs.

I smiled sadly at him as we stayed there in a comfortable silence for a few seconds.

"B-But... weren't you on birth control?" He asked making me sigh. "I was but I obviously couldn't take it while I was unconscious at the hospital. It kinda' fucked the whole cycle up" I explained.

He nodded understanding what I was saying.

"What about my parents Shawn?" I asked the dreaded question we were both thinking but desperately wanted to avoid.

He gulped before making eye contact with me. "I really don't know Em" he said making my eyes begin to water at the thought of him being away from me.

"We'll get through this. We will Emily. I promise" he whispered lacing his right hand with mine.

"Fuck I'm so scared Shawn" I whispered making him grab my chin to look at him.

"I know you are. So am I. But we can do this. I'm not leaving your side. I love you and If my plans of starting a family with you was going to start early then so be it" He spoke as if what he'd just revealed was nothing.

My heart was melting at the fact that he was planning to have kids with me.

"I love you too" I responding looking him straight in the eye, meaning every word.

"And I love you" he whispered placing a hand over my stomach. I let out a sob at the sight.

There probably was only a tiny little dot in my stomach right now that couldn't even be classified as a human yet.

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A/N: Yea short chapter but be prepared :)))