Personal Body Guard - (Shawn Mendes)

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"I know you think this shit is easy
For you, but not so much for me
But I'll still ride,
that's just the risk I'll take"

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*Emily's Point Of View*

Good thing your on birth control

Those were the only words that ran through my head that night. Over and over again. Shawn had fallen asleep soon after our doings whilst I was up stressing that I hadn't taken my birth control pills since before the party incident.

I mean I was completely unconscious for two days can you blame me?

I know it was stupid to let him finish inside me or even let us have sex without a condom in general.

The next morning I forced Shawn to drive me to the pharmacy nearby to get 'medicine'. When really my 'medicine' was the morning after pill.

Here I was two weeks later throwing up into my toilet as Shawn held my hair back and rubbed my back soothingly.

"No class today then?" He asked. I was supposed to go back to class the Monday after being discharged from the hospital but I was too weak. Today was going to be my first class but I didn't think I was up to it the way I was feeling mentally and physically.

I knew even if I did stop throwing up, I wouldn't be able to focus anyway.

I shook my head no, finally responding back to Shawn's question. I lifted my head from the bowl, flushing it before heading over to my sink. I splashed my face with water before loading my toothbrush with toothpaste and scrubbing my teeth and tongue.

"What's up with you? You got your medication the other day and you're still throwing up?" He asked leaning on the door frame as he looked at me in concern.

I shrugged in response trying to hide the fact that I was scared out of my mind.

I knew I had to take a pregnant test soon but I was trying to wait it off as long as I could.

"Y-yeah I don't know, I might have to get some more" I said wiping my face dry.

He nodded slowly, continuing to stare at me intently.

I looked back at him in the mirror, confusion showing on my face.

"What?" I ask making him shake his head as if he was shaking his thoughts from his head.

"Well, do you want to go grab some more now? I can pop down to the pharmacy now if you'd like?" He asked with a comforting smile on his face.

"I'll come with you... Uh get some fresh air" I said nervously hoping he wouldn't notice my change of tone. He nodded as I followed him out the bathroom. I slipped my shoes on, grabbing my wallet before heading to the front door.

Shawn was already standing there his keys in one hand and his wallet in the other.

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"Are you sure you don't want me to come in with you?" He asked curiously, both his hands resting on the steering wheel.

"Yea, I'll be two minutes" I assured him leaning over to peck his cheek before hopping out of the car.

I made my way into the local pharmacy store walking down the aisles before spotting the baby care aisle.

I bit my lip nervously before making my way down it. I cringed walking past all the breast pumps and formulas thinking that could potentially be me.

I stopped in front of the tens on tens of different brand pregnancy tests. I grabbed the cheapest one before rushing out the aisle and to the checkout, managing to grab a packet of Panadol on the way.

I nervously slid both my items across the counter to the cheek out lady who just smiled at me and casually scanned my items before placing them in a small paper bag.

I handed her the cash as she processed the sale and handed me my receipt.

I thanked her before quickly rushing out the doors, my cheeks tinted a bright red with embarrassment. She was probably judging me thinking I was some stupid teenage knock up.

I swung the car door open, plopping my self down on the seat and buckling myself up.

"You get it?" He asked starting the car up. I nodded holding up the brown paper bag making him smile.

He grasped my thigh as he reversed out the park and headed on our way home. And for the first time ever his touch wasn't comforting enough to calm me just down. A negative test would only solve that right now.

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I sighed pacing back and forth in my bathroom my hand getting tired of running through my hair over and over again.

I was scared. What if I was pregnant? How would I tell Shawn that I was having his baby and we weren't even official? He would drop me like that!

I sighed finally opening the box and sliding the instructions manual and pregnancy test out. I let out a huff as I opened the small manual reading briefly over the instructions.

Seems pretty simple, pee on a stick and it'll basically reveal your future.

I took in a shaky breath as I headed to the toilet.

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My alarm went off echoing off the bathroom walls. I quickly pressed the snooze button as I continued to sit on the closed toilet seat. I could see the pregnancy test sitting on the bench awaiting my reaction.

I rested my head in my hands for a few minutes really contemplating whether I wanted to know the answer.

I felt physically sick standing up, my palm began to get clammy as my body began to heat up. I felt my heart race heavily as I got closer to the test. I closed my eyes reaching for the test.

I took in a deep breath as I let one eye open to glance at the test.

One line.

ONE LINE!

I gasped covering my mouth as my eyes instantly began to tear up in happiness.

I wasn't pregnant

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A/N: I'm so sorry I haven't been updating recently. I've been going through some shit and crying like 24/7 so sorry about thattt. I'll hop back on the updating band wagon asap xxx