Force connections

A switch of roles

For the next five days I continued my mission to beat all of my fellow knights of Ren. The fights were tough, some more than others, and now, on the eve of my final and biggest fight against Teekado I was sat on my bed, my whole body aching, covered in dark purple bruises, cuts and burns.

I found myself longing for the comfort that Rey brought. I was exhausted but still I forced my mind to focus on her, thinking about our last kiss. I closed my eyes and lay back on the bed, my fingers laced together, focusing on my breathing. I just had to beat Teekado tomorrow and then I would be master of the knights of Ren once more. I smiled to myself, I had almost managed to claw something back. My mind wandered back to Rey and what I had experienced almost a week ago. A wave of arousal rushed through me and I shivered, pushing it away. Rey might have brought me to orgasm but I wasn't going to give her the satisfaction of the same. My mind stayed focused on her and for a moment I thought I could see a light behind my eye lids. I headed towards it in my mind. Just then a sob filled my ears. I sat up and looked around, the humming had started. I was connecting with Rey and I was pretty sure I had made it happen. It was as if Rey and I had swapped places. Did that mean that she had closed herself off from the force now? Had I made her do that?

Suddenly I saw her. She was lying in a bed facing away from me, sobs wracking her small body. I stood up and hesitated, not sure how she would react and also whether I should be here at all? No, she makes you weak,go. A voice inside my head whispered. I closed my eyes and tried to walk away but it didn't work and suddenly Rey turned over in bed and our eyes locked.  She froze,  her face wet with tears, hair stuck to her cheeks.  I stood still, breathing heavily, what was I meant to say?  Rey sat up, pulling the blankets around her, a hand coming up to wipe at her eyes.  For a long moment we just stared at each other, neither wanting to be the one to speak first.  "Why are you crying?" I asked at last.  Rey sniffed, dabbing at her nose with the sheets and shook her head, her eyes dropping.  I walked closer to her, coming to stand directly in front of where she sat.  She recoiled, pushing herself up against the wall.  Her reaction made my heart sink, it was as if we had traveled back in time to when we had first met, was she afraid of me again?  "Why are you here" she said sternly.  "Have you closed yourself off from the force?" I asked, ignoring her question.  Rey's eyes shot up to mine and for a moment I thought she wouldn't answer.  I watched her eyes fill with tears again "I, I don't want this anymore, it's a curse.  Back on Devaron Poe asked me why you, why out of all the men in the galaxy did I love you"Rey stopped to wipe another tear away "I said that the force wanted us to be together, that we had this connection, that we had a future together", Rey's voice cracked and I swallowed hard, suddenly aware of my own emotions rising, "He asked me why I couldn't shut myself off from the force like Luke. I didn't want to, but now I see it's for the best". I found myself coming to sit next to Rey then. She pulled the covers tighter around her, "But you, it seems that you've opened yourself to the force" she said looking at me. I nodded, lifting my chin into the air, "I had to, I needed it for something". For a moment I thought she would press me for answers but she didn't. "Did you make this force connection happen?" she asked quietly. I nodded, "I was thinking of you and suddenly you were there". Rey nodded, "Did you come to see me because I was crying?" she asked, her voice hopeful. I shook my head quickly, frightened of allowing myself to become emotionally involved again. Hurt crossed Rey's face for a moment as I spoke "I didn't know you were crying, I just thought of you and then you appeared" I said shifting slightly on the bed. Rey considered this for a moment before speaking, "When I was connected to you I felt everything, it's strange how you don't". That statement felt like an attack at my grasp of the force and I stood again, looking down at her, irritation flowing through my veins. I lifted my chin, an action that I used to do a lot before I met Rey and an action I had used a lot since I had been at this castle. It was my way of showing that I was superior, even if deep down I didn't feel it. For a moment I wondered if I should tell her about feeling her pleasure. Suddenly it was as if she had read my thoughts. She straightened up on the bed, her cheeks flushing, "Ben, do you feel anything else from me? I used to not only feel your pain and emotions but, but also your pleasure. It was experiencing that that made me fall in love with you" she trailed off, her cheeks flushed, hers eyes staying trained on the floor. I shifted and it was my turn to blush as I answered, "Yes". Rey's eyes flew up, her cheeks reddening further. I held her gaze swallowing hard and then suddenly she was gone and I was alone in my room.