Force connections

Found out

When I woke the next day I realised that it was the first time for a long time that I hadn't had sleep plagued with nightmares. In fact I'd slept soundly, a deep and dreamless sleep. I rose from my bed and showered. All the while remembering how it felt when she was with me. How my release had felt, how her own release had sounded.  The thought of it made me hard again and I struggled to clear my mind before dressing and heading down to oversee the new troops.

Hux was stood alone waiting for me. He took a step back as I approached, clearly still nervous of me. I studied his neck, taking in the red marks that I had put there. For a moment he was silent and then he spoke "Are you with us Ren?" He said his eyes never leaving the troops in front of him. I turned slowly and looked at him. Finally he turned and met my gaze, "I mean, I know something is going on between you and the scavenger. It's plain to see, just got me wondering if you were with her when you ran away yesterday?".  I froze, my eyes studying his pale features, I hadn't expected him to be so bold. "And what exactly would you do about it if I was General?" I asked, calling his bluff, hoping that I would stop him in his tracks. For a moment he looked taken aback and then he leant in closer to me, "I think that would make you a traitor Ren. Traitors are to be executed under the laws of the First Order if I am not mistaken". I smirked at him, "And how exactly would you prove that I was a traitor?", Hux stood for a moment thinking, choosing his words before he spoke again, "Well there is still the little question of how the scavenger girl defeated all of the pretorian guards and you single handedly. I'm not clear on how she did that and I'm sure I'm not the only one wondering how that was possible. Everyone knows you helped her in that throne room.  It wouldn't take much to convince them that you were a turn coat, blinded by a pretty face. Be careful Ren, I'm watching you", and then before I could respond Hux strode off shouting commands at the troops.

After that the air was cool between us.  He knew, of course he knew and so did everyone else, they were just too scared to challenge me.  My time here was running out and that made Rey even more important, where would I go if I couldn't go to her, I had no-one else in the galaxy.  But her friends, they would be the problem, the resistance for all its goodness and pure hearts would never accept me and, to be honest, I wasn't sure that I wanted to be accepted by them.  ButI did want her.  That much I knew.

By evening I was glad to leave the icy aura of Hux and head back to my quarters.  I pulled off my boots and gloves and lay down on my bed, looking at the ceiling, wondering what Hux's next move would be. How long did I have before he made a move to out me?  Should I tell Rey the next time we spoke?  Suddenly I found myself wondering when that would be. I longed to see her again. After last night I felt such a connection to her.  We had both experienced such pleasure together that it made me hungry for more.  I felt that familiar tightening in my pants and tried to push it away. What would Rey think if you were at it again tonight I scolded myself.  I sat up then on the edge of my bed wondering if Rey would leave with me, not to rule together, just to be together.  But where could we go?  Just then a faint humming disturbed my thoughts.