Force connections

Getting to know each other again

By the time we reached my room, my heart was racing and my mind was flying, would it be like it was before? Would it make it feel different knowing that the pilot had been intimate with her too?

I pushed open the door and went in, turning to watch Rey as she took it all in, the circular room, the slit windows and the heavy furniture. Her eyes took in her surroundings as if she had never seen such a place before and I had to remind myself that she probably hadn't. Suddenly I saw her eyes fix in place and her face pull into a frown. I turned quickly to see what she was looking at. It was my mask. It was set on the floor by the bed. "Ben, why?" She said looking to me for answers, "I needed it.." I began but Rey cut me off "Ben you don't need it, not now, you're no longer a slave to Snoke and the Fitst Order" "I have to appear powerful or the men here will run me out. I worked hard to gain my place again here amongst the knights of Ren". Rey nodded then, her arms folding across her chest "That's how you got the new scar isn't it? Fighting, trying to regain what you left behind before the First Order?". She looked cross although I had no idea why that irked her so. I nodded, "Rey I am Kylo Ren, Master of the Knights of Ren now". Rey's face dropped and she turned away, heading for the door. I grabbed her arm again, "How I've longed to be Ben Solo with you again though Rey" I heard myself saying. Rey hesitated, her back still turned to me but slowly, bit by bit she turned and then, her eyes shining, she walked to me and I folded my arms around her.

"I prefer Ben Solo" she said into my chest. I nodded, my chin resting on the top of her head, "Me too" I whispered. Rey looked up at me and for a moment our eyes locked and then she was kissing me, her hands sliding into my hair, mine doing the same to her. Our bodies pressed against each other's and my hardness grew, my month long absence from her touch making my breathing shaky. When we pulled apart I lifted her, scooping her up as easily as I had the first time I had met her in the forest and laid her on the bed. She lay looking up at me, her face flushed, her eyes wide and for the one millionth time I marvelled at her beauty. I climbed onto the bed hovering above her on all fours and for another moment we just looked at each other, reading each other, enjoying simply being in each other's presence and then suddenly she was pushing up towards me, pulling my mouth to hers.  Our lips locked and we kissed passionately.  I lifted her so that now I was sat on the bed and she was on my lap straddling me.  As we kissed she began to grind herself down on top of me, the motion made me grunt, my hands flying down to hold her bottom, pressing her harder to me, silently giving my wish for her to keep going.  Our lips broke apart.  Rey leant her head back, her eyes closed, soft noises escaping her lips and I moved my lips to her neck, licking and biting there, my shaky breath hitting her skin. A nip to her collarbone caused a low moan from her and suddenly I stopped, holding her hips firmly, wordlessly instructing her to do the same, "I don't feel you anymore" I said shakily.  Rey's eyes locked onto mine for a moment, her brows furrowed.  "You're right, I don't feel what you're feeling either, just what's happening to me.  Why is that?".  I thought for a moment.  Half of me felt sad that I couldn't feel her pleasure anymore but then another half was glad, after almost a month without her I could do without dealing with double the pleasure.  Suddenly Rey climbed off me and I let my breath out, disliking the loss of contact.  She went over to her bag and pulled out a book which I immediately recognised to be one of the Jedi texts.  She sat next to me on the bed, the book resting on her knees and flicked through the pages, stopping finally, wrinkling up her nose and reading silently, her lips moving as she did so. I watched her, a smile on my lips, she looked beautiful when she concentrated. "When two force powers are completely equal they will no longer experience the other's pleasure or pain, merely be able to connect with them still", she looked up then, a smile on her own lips, "Ben we're equal, I like that" she said kissing my lips. Just then there was a knock at the door. "Come in" I said quickly standing from the bed and smoothing my clothes. Rey stood too. At the door stood the traitor and behind him the girl from the mine. "Uh Rey, they're serving lunch" the traitor said, his eyes on Rey, never once acknowledging me, "Thank you Finn, we'll be right down " she said. The traitor hesitated for a moment and then nodded, turning on his heel, his hand linking with the girls. Rey closed the door and turned to me, "Shall we eat?" I said moving to her and linking my hand with hers as I had seen the traitor do, "Ben?" She said in a whisper as though someone might hear, "What about your knights, what about my resistance fighters? What will they say if they see us holding hands?", "I don't care right now" I said pulling the door open and heading down the steps.

All eyes were on us as we entered the hall. My knights watched quietly, a mixture of envy and confusion on their faces. The resistance members looked hurt and confused, especially the pilot. My eyes met with his and he attempted to stare me down but I won, lifting my chin up, feeling a swell of pride at the beautiful girl holding my hand.

After lunch I showed Rey around. We walked through the gloomy trees and I watched with amusement as she looked at it all in wonderment. I showed her the hot spring and her cheeks reddened when I told her that was where you washed. She placed her hand under the water and closed her eyes "I've never felt warm water before" she admitted as she opened her eyes again, watching the beads run over her hand.

As the light left the sky I was more than ready to take her back to my room, spending all afternoon with her, her hand in mine, was wonderful but I was having a hard time forgetting where we had left off a few hours ago. Rey however seemed more than happy to spend her time just walking with me, telling me about Jakku and how she had survived there. I listened with wonder, how had she stayed so pure and sweet whilst enduring such a hard life. We stopped then to sit under a tall pine tree, our legs touching, our fingers intwined, "Ben, what's your earliest memory?" She asked softly. I sighed, I knew this was coming, I knew that she would expect me to return her honesty with some of my own about my past. I thought hard. I had blocked so many early memories on purpose, refusing to acknowledge them but now they were drifting back to me. "At home on Chandrilla, my mother carrying me on one hip whilst she gave out orders to the resistance" I said coldly, hating the feelings that saying that gave me. Rey nodded slowly, her eyes on me, clearly expecting more. I swallowed hard, biting the inside of my mouth, "My father, telling me he would be home soon and then never coming, my mother crying". I turned away quickly, suddenly over come by the memories. Rey scooted round in front of me, her voice a soft whisper in my ear, "I'm sorry Ben, I'm sorry they made you feel so unwanted but I want you, I love you". My hand flew up to wipe tears away but I felt her hand there first, her soft fingers pushing the wetness from my cheeks. It was dark now and cool and she allowed me to help her up, standing then in front of me, looking up into my eyes. I lifted her then, her legs locking around my waist and we kissed, Rey beginning the same grinding motion with her hips, massaging my already growing hardness. I moaned noisily as I helped by lifting her up and down, pumping my arms, holding her hard against me, enjoying the contact. Finally Rey wiggled slightly and jumped down leaving me panting heavily, my mouth slightly open, my trousers straining, "I wonder if we can get something to eat" she said beginning to walk away, I grabbed her wrist "Rey" I said breathily, "don't you want this, you keep stopping?" I asked, trying to slow my breathing. Rey hesitated and then came to stand in front of me, her eyes brimming with tears, "Ben I'm so sorry about Poe. I feel so terrible. I wish I hadn't let him have me" she said as a sob escaped her lips. I wrapped my arms around her tightly, "I wish that too. But I want you so badly Rey. Please forget him, come to my room"I urged feeling my hardness twitch. Just then a voice sounded through the trees, Rey wiped at her eyes and I cursed, adjusting my aching erection. The traitors girlfriend appeared then and I watched her falter suddenly as she realised that she was interrupting something. Her eyes stayed on Rey's, "Sorry, uh we've been looking for you, a meal has been served, Rey they've even got wine! I've never tasted that before!" She gushed and then suddenly she stopped as though she had just remembered that I was there. Rey glanced back at me and then followed the girl. I sighed, adjusting myself again before I followed them back to the castle.