Force connections

First night

After we ate I helped Rey clean up.  It felt so alien to me, this whole playing house, just being with someone felt strange.  Afterwards Rey and I took turns to use the shower.  I contemplated walking in and joining her as she washed but I wasn't sure how she felt, she had been very quiet.  After I had showered I pulled on clean underwear and a white shirt from the hut and then walked into the bedroom.  Rey was watching me from the bed, lying on her side, her knees pulled up against her stomach.  When she had come out of the shower room I had had to look away such was the sight of her in a thin cotton nightshirt. I had made my excuses and rushed to the shower, knowing all the time that she was watching me and feeling the sudden rush of desire that coursed through my body at the sight of her like that.  Truth be told I hadn't stopped thinking dirty thoughts ever since the pilot had interrupted us earlier and now there she was, not a force bond but Rey, really there waiting for me on the bed that we were to share. 

The room was bathed in moonlight.  When I reached the bed she shifted over allowing me to lie down.  I lay on my back, still trying to read the situation, not wanting to make a move and be rebuffed.  "Ben?" I turned and looked at her, "you don't regret coming here do you?" , "No" I answered honestly.  She reached her hand out to me and I took it, pulling her closer, watching her smile as she pressed against me.  She was warm and her damp hair smelt of flowers.  I realised then that this was the first time that I'd ever slept in the same bed as someone else and it surprised me how much warmer I felt.  Normally the sheets were ice cold but here, even lying on top of them I felt warm.  Rey's hand busied itself sweeping my damp hair off my forehead and I watched her, marvelling at her beauty, watching her large eyes close sleepily.  I ran my hands up to her head, stroking her hair gently, mirroring what she was doing to me and her eyes opened, a smile flashing across her face.  I found myself smiling back, something I was pretty sure she had never seen me do before.  At that sight she kissed my cheek, "You should smile more often, you look beautiful" she whispered before planting soft kisses all over my lips and cheeks. I smiled again, I couldn't help it, I had never felt so loved, so desired. Rey looked delighted and began to giggle. "What?" I asked still smiling, she shook her head still laughing and then suddenly she became serious , "This is like a dream. I can't believe it's you that's here smiling at me. When I think back to the first time we met". I nodded, remembering the terror on her face when I reached into her mind back in the forest."I wish we could wish this war away Ben. I wish it could just be us safe here forever", "Me too" I said quietly, realising that I meant it.  If I could I would take Rey away somewhere, just the two of us.  I pulled her even closer and held her against me, my chin resting on her head.  "Do you think we will ever be able to live our lives in peace?" Rey asked.  I considered this before I replied, "One day all of this will be over and it will be just you and me together, I promise". I felt her smile against my chest and then she lifted her head to look at me. I watched her eyes take in the scar that she had given me,"I'm sorry Ben" she whispered, tracing her fingers along it and then down my neck. She tugged at the shirt, pulling it up and then running her fingers along the raised edges on my chest, "For what?" I asked shivering slightly under her touch, "This scar. And the one on your arm" she added, her eyes glazed, clearly remembering our fight in the snow. I watched her, her eyes roaming over my now exposed torso and saw them stop at the blaster scar on my side. I tensed, not wanting to have to discuss how I came to have that, but she merely ran her hand over it lightly and then pulled my shirt back down, resting her head on my chest again, "Ben, what sort of child were you?" she asked suddenly. I flinched. I hated thinking about my childhood, very less talking about it. When I didn't answer Rey lifted her head, her eyes roaming across my face. I shrugged, avoiding her eyes. She sighed and lay her head back down "You don't like talking about your past do you?", "No" I said abruptly, unwrapping my arms from her, wanting suddenly to be out of this now awkward scenario. Rey sat up then, her head cocked on one side, "Ben it's fine, you don't have to tell me anything you don't want to ". I nodded as she tugged at the covers, "I'm getting cold" she whispered climbing under them. At first I didn't move, still frozen by having to think of my younger years but then Rey touched my hand and I climbed under the sheets with her. Now it was her turn to pull me close. Soon we were chest to chest. She touched her lips on mine. I hesitated, still feeling uncomfortable, but then she ran her lips down my neck to my collarbone and my body reacted faster than my mind, a low groan escaping my lips, matched by a gasp from her. She began to kiss my neck then, sending shivers through my body and I responded by wrapping my arms around her and then her lips found mine and we kissed, slowly at first and then with growing passion, my hands pushing up into her hair, returning the favour by kissing around her ears, making her gasp , and then our lips were against each other's again and my hands were running down her body, finding the hem of her nightshirt and pulling it up.  My hands brushed her soft skin and my already growing erection became even harder at the realisation that she was completely naked under the shirt.  I felt her tense as I ran my hands up her bare back and I pulled away for a moment, studying her face,"Do you not want me to do this?" I asked in a breathy voice.  She looked into my eyes and then pulled away from me and sat up, pulling the shirt off over her head and dropping it to the floor.  I stared at her body in the moonlight.  She was perfect.  Every angle was beautifully curved.  I let my eyes run up and down her.  It was my first time seeing a naked woman and I found myself captivated.  Rey lay back down next to me and pulled the covers over her naked skin, "Your turn" she said quietly, her eyes on me.  My heart was thudding.  I wanted to show myself to her but I was nervous. It had felt different when she had seen me without a shirt, I had always felt in control. But now, to show my entire self to her made me feel a mixture of excitement and nerves.  I pushed the covers back and knelt there for a moment as her eyes rested on my erection straining against my underwear and then I pulled off the shirt and let it fall to the floor. I sat down and lifted my hips, pulling my underwear off and then I sat there and allowed her wide eyes to take me in, all of me, it felt strangely liberating to allow another human being see you in such a vulnerable state.  She sat up next to me and stroked my chest, running her hand all the way down to my belly button, unleashing a deep groan from me.  She bit her lip, feeling the same sensation and then she did it again, her fingers almost reaching my aching hardness.  I closed my eyes wondering how I had lived without her.  Suddenly her hand was on mine and it was guided to her breasts.  I stroked them gently, unsure of what to do but watching her reactions closely, learning what she enjoyed most.  Her hands were in my hair, running through it.  I leant down and kissed her neck, enjoying the way that it made her pant, kissing every bit.  I went to lift my head but she pushed it down so that my mouth was on her breasts.  I carried on my kisses, finding that she reacted most when I slowly kissed her nipples and then going back over them time and time again, becoming highly aroused myself at her soft noises and breathy moans.   Then she was pushing me backwards until I was lying down, her tongue licking at my chest, making it's way to my stomach, making the muscles there tighten and a gasp escape from my lips.   She was kissing right above my hardness now and all I could think was what it might feel like if she kissed me there. I was squirming, too unsure to ask for what I wanted but too aroused to not hint at it, my hands lightly pushing her shoulders.  She stopped and looked up panting, feeling my burning need and desire "Ben, what do you want" she asked softly, "Show me".  I didn't need anymore encouragement, with a shaky breath I pushed her head downwards until she was right above my aching hardness, "Kiss me there" I said, my voice breathless and shaky. She didn't hesitate and I felt her soft lips touch my erection. I jumped at the new sensation and we both gasped, my hands flying down into her hair as she continued to kiss me, down the length and then back up to the head, sending delicious shudders through my groin and into my stomach, making me buck against her mouth and then she was pushing me into her mouth, I cried out as she allowed me to slide in and out of her open lips. The sensations were becoming so intense that I became afraid that I would release into her mouth and my hand hurriedly pushed at her shoulder, "Rey, Rey stop" I gasped, watching her head snap up, her hand still holding me, her mouth open, panting heavily. I pulled her upwards so that she was laying on top of me, her naked body on mine, all the while marvelling at how it felt to be like this with another human being. We kissed and ran our hands over each other's warm skin.  She was so soft. I could feel her wetness against my hip and I ached with desire.  I had heard other trainees talking about such things when I was staying with my uncle.  I knew that I could push up inside her, I knew that was what our bodies were designed to do and the very thought of it sent a shudder through me.  I shifted, lifting Rey slightly and then rolling her onto her back.  For a moment her eyes opened but then they closed again as I kissed her.  I felt her open her legs slightly underneath me as a soft moan left both of our lips simultaneously.  I shifted my body as we kissed until my erection was pressing against her wetness.  She gasped, her eyes opening to look at me.  I stared back at her my breaths ragged, asking a silent permission.  She nodded, taking a deep breath.  I did the same, how long had it been since I had first heard those trainees talking about this?  Many times since I had wondered about it and until recently I had decided that I would never experience it, would never know how it felt and yet here I was.  I pushed forwards with my hips, feeling softness all around me.  I pushed a little further and cried out, feeling Rey shudder beneath me.  I pushed again and this time I knew I was totally inside of her.  Inside of the woman who I had fallen in love with.  I looked down at her face and saw her wince, I hesitated but she nodded quickly, "Keep going".  I moved in and out of her, my body alive with the sensations, her voice calling out either from her own pleasure or mine or both, it didn't matter, what mattered was that we were both experiencing this together for the first time.  I kept my eyes shut, feeling her wetness all around my hardness, concentrating on the growing sensations, hearing my own voice cry out, making noises I'd never heard myself make before.  She was holding onto my shoulders, her legs slightly lifted towards her chest and then she suddenly held my cheek.  I opened my eyes to see her staring at me, "I love you Ben" she gasped as I carried on the rhythm, I tried to answer but then a great wave of pleasure swept over me and I felt my whole body tense as I orgasmed, my moans drowned out by her mouth as she pressed it against mine, her own body rocking and contracting around me as she reached her own release, helped by the strong pleasure she felt me experience. 

I dropped down on top of her, holding my weight off her with my arms.  Both of our breathing was heavy, escaping in shaky breaths.  I looked at her, suddenly embarrassed by the noises I had made, but all of that changed when I saw how she was looking at me.  A smile so wide was stretched across her face and her eyes were brimming with unshed tears.  I studied her for a moment and then I touched her face tenderly, feeling damp skin under my fingers, "I love you too Rey".