If Only

Chapter 37

Austin's POV

It is now late afternoon and I still can't get that dream out of my head and I am snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of the bathroom door opening, and as I turn my head I see Garrett step out in his new clothes. He is wearing a dark blue long sleeve shirt with the sleeves rolled up a little, a necklace around his neck, a bracelet on his right wrist, a pair of old looking blue jeans, and his normal sneakers. "Are you ready to go?" Garrett asks and I look at him confused for a moment but I notice that he seems back to his normal self already, "You already checked yourself out?"Garrett adjusts his bag on his shoulder as he nods his head. "Yeah, I it was the first thing that I did this morning, I have had enough of this place." I laugh a little seeing how much Garrett wanted to get out of here, "Yeah, I should get back to campus I am sure that Katie has flyers posted all over the place saying that I am a missing person." I stand up out of the chair and stretch still feeling the effects of sleeping in that very uncomfortable chair, 

"It was cool that you stayed with me last night, I guess I owe you." I smile at Garrett as he rubs the back of his neck, "I am assuming that was your way of saying thank you?" I ask seeing just how much it took out of Garrett just to say that to me, "Yeah, and that is all your getting." He snaps at me a little as he walks out of the room. Garrett will always be Garrett and I fear that he will never change but then again, I love who Garrett is and I wouldn't change anything about him. My mind once again drifts to the dream I had last night and how real it felt, I can still feel Garrett's hands on my body and I close my eyes enjoying the moment. I open my eyes and start thinking that maybe that dream is trying to tell me something, but on the other hand that dream could just be because I was stuck in a room with Huntsman last night and he was the last thing I saw before I fell asleep. I push the thoughts out of my mind for right now as I gather up my stuff and walk out of the room and into the main part of the hospital where Garrett is waiting for me as he finishes signing some papers.

"I just finished checking out and I am all clear to go." He says with a huge smile on his face. I make the moral decision that I need to tell Garrett the truth about me, about these feelings that I have been having for him, and about the dream I had last night if I going to keep being his tutor. "Garrett, can I talk to you about something." Garrett nods his head as the two of us walk out of the hospital and into the parking lot, "What is your that massive mind of yours today?" He asks in a mocking tone but it was a rude tone but rather a friendly tone. "That reminds me, I never told you what happened this morning when I started my release papers." Garrett cuts me off and this kind of makes me go back into my shell as my social anxiety starts to get the best of me, "It turns out that the male nurse I had was gay." This makes me snap my attention right at Garrett as panic starts to rise in me and I try my best to make sure that it,doesn't show up on my face, 

"How did you know he was gay?" I ask my voice a little shaky and I think Garrett notices because he looks over at me with a strange look on his face. "Are you alright Bookworm? You seem unnecessarily nervous?" I just start fidgeting with anything I can get my hands on trying to get my nerves under control, "I'm fine." I say which is true on the outside but on the inside I am beyond freaking out. "The reason I could tell that my nurse was gay was because I caught him checking me out when he was supposed to be checking my vitals and stuff like that." Garrett lets out a huge laugh as he places his hands behind his head, "I can't say I blame him I mean look at me, why wouldn't he check all of this out." Garrett says flexing his muscles and runs his hands down and along his body making a huge joke of it, "But I am not into that sort of thing,I like girls." I swallow a large lump in my throat and I can also feel myself back tracking in my choice to let Garrett know the truth because judging from how funny and all the jokes he is making about it, I know that it would ruin our friendship,and in the end Garrett would never look at me or treat me the same again. I am once again snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of Garrett's voice, "BLACK!"He yells at the top of his lungs as it echoes through the parking garage. I turn my head to look at him, "You wanted to talk to me about something?" he asks and the panic inside of me gets worse than before as I frantically try to figure out something to say that would explain what I wanted to talk about without actually coming out to Garrett as gay.

"I wanted to talk about your next session." I say letting out the biggest breath of relief as all the panic leaves my body and I start getting back to normal. "That was important?" He asks as ewe walk up to my car, 'There isn't much time left and we still have a lot of book to cover." Garrett runs his hands through his hair as he opens the trunk of the car across from me, "I will look at my busy schedule and let you know when I have an opening." He says walking over to the car and throwing his back into the trunk before closing the trunk and getting into the car. I wait until Garrett speeds off and leaves before getting into my own car and I just sit there for the longest time letting myself calm down as I start to let everything from the last 72 hours sink into my brain. I start my car and head back to camps but more importantly I am heading back to my dorm room where everything makes sense to me.