BROKEN - to be healed by her (manan ff)✔️

19: It's her.....

Nandini's pov:

                "Chachiiiii!!!! Mera voh maroon vala top nhi mil raha aur voh formal shirt naya vala voh bhi nhi! Kuch nhi mil raha chachiii!!"

ughhh why!why! Why Me! confused? Don't be, I was here packing for our alleged 'trip' to goa and I couldn't for heavens sake get my hands on anything!

Otherwise I am a very organized person but this entire 'trip with the monster thing' is making me go all paranoid and why wouldn't I he gives me all the reasons to be.

"Nandu, beta sab yahi hai dhyaan se dekh, tujhe cheze milegi kaise jab tune apne room ka kabada kar rakha hai, kya hua hai tujhe tu aaise kabhi behave nhi karti, kuch hua hai kya main kab se observe kar rahi hu tujhe kuch baat hai kanna toh bata na"

Chachi said lovingly caressing my face,this was her even though she wasn't my biological mother but she could guess my mood just by looking at me making it difficult for me to hide anything from her.

I smiled at her and made her sit on my bed and layed down with my head on her lap.

"kuch nhi Chachi bas kaam ka thoda tension hai fir Rishab ko chodke jana itne time ke liye mujhe aacha nhi lag raha"

I said trying my best to not lie in anyway my problem was related to work somewhere if not entirely and I was worried about Rishab, it is actually making me worried to leave him alone for so long, I know Chacha,chachi will take care of him that goes without saying but sometimes he needs just me and I don't want him to find me missing when he does.

"Tu itna tension mat le kanna, hum hai na rishu ka dhyaan rakhne ke liye aur tere kaam ka na tu itna stress mat liya kar mujhe pata hai mera baccha is strong enough to handle everything that comes her way aur hum toh hai hi tujhe support karne ke liye haina, toh bas, abb tu tension mat le chal hum teri packing kar lete hai aur fir aaram se soo jaa kal pura din tujhe travel karna hai"

she said caressing my hairs after which I sat giving her a smile and a hug, we finished my packing and we spent some quality family time before I went back to room to catch some good sleep before a hectic day...

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Manik's pov:

             Astonished! Was the only expression on her face when I stopped her to inform about tomorrow and why wouldn't she be, I was avoiding her for the entire day even though I knew she was trying to initiate a conversation to which I kept giving a cold shoulder to. I know she is confused by my bipolar behavior and honestly I am too. These days my actions are ditching my words.

That day (storeroom incident day) after she left I tried working but couldn't make my self do so, as my mind was clouded with my actions of the day, I couldn't comprehend the reason for my actions whenever I tried to come up with one I failed miserably making me wonder about the same again and again which did nothing except messing with my mind even more, finally after having enough I wrapped up my work for the day and went to the only place that could manage to calm me down and bring some stability to my chain of thoughts....

I left my cabin only to enter the room beside ‘ mystery room’ as termed by many. I wouldn't blame them it was a mystery afterall, the bittersweet mystery of my life. Just as I entered I could feel my muscles relax and a soothing feeling took over my senses after I saw the picture right in front of my eyes hanging on the wall. I was here to the one who is my biggest strength and weakness at the same time to her...

I lost my peace seven years back in every aspect but this is the only place that is my escape from the chaos of life, my escape from reality, the only place where I am just Manik. Manik without the ‘malhotra’ tag hanging around my neck..

I gazed at her for hours as I always do, according to some they may find it irrational but for me it is a way to sort every problem that I come across. It feels as if I interact with her and she gives answers to my every intricacy. I expected the same to happen that day but much to my amusement I couldn't keep away the weird thoughts from my mind even then....

It kept wondering back to the storeroom, her state, her faint cries followed by the hysteric ones, her scared face, the lost look in her eyes, everything, everything kept hovering over my eyes every now and then. I knew partially it was because her state reminded me of my past self, the past self i was running from or considered dead.

when I tried to justify this to be the reason of my actions my subconscious poked me asking the question I feared I had no answer to ‘ if this was the reason then why didn't I ran away from her as I have been running away from my past? Why was I concerned for her?? Why was her unconscious state bothering me so much?’ and many such questions that I didn't had an answer too or was too scared to come up with one..

I knew this girl was trouble since the time we had our first encounter. Her attitude sure did piss me off but her brave opinionated self was something I was always impressed by... I knew, the more she gets close to me the more trouble she'll bring along. From the very first day I was sure to stay a mile away from her but as always the fate is never in my favor!! she landed up in my cabin...

In this one month i kind off got habitual to her antics, the redolence of the flowers she brought along, her frequent chats with her aiyappa. I was aware of everything! Afterall she ain't that good at keeping it low...

I couldn't comprehend what is this, the unusual feeling, the restlessness that seems to have no end, I didn't knew why is this but i knew the reason for this it's her....

I knew if I had to stay sane and get away with this restless self of mine. I had to stay away from her, I was adamant too. I won't let her mess with my mind anymore..

With this thought I left the room that night, only to end up asking her if she is doing ‘fine’, I hated how my firm decision to stay away from her went in drain when I saw her the next morning and couldn't stop myself from doing what I did...

It wasn't much later that I realized how I shouldn't have done that and should stick to my previous plan.

Which worked well for the rest of the day and the following until!! The deal thing came up, the more I am trying to go away from her, the more difficult it is getting to do so.. As I said fate has never been my friend!

Teri mehek hi tere hone ma ehsaas hai,

Dikhai deti nhi ho lekin phir bhi tu paas hai...

~Gulzar

Heyyy!! Guys here's the update hope most of your's confusions are cleared atleast a bit about manik's behavior yet there's so much to be revealed, stay tuned to know more...

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