BROKEN - to be healed by her (manan ff)✔️

54: All real or nothing at all!

Nandini's pov:

                What on freaking earth!! Did i hear it right! Did he just say he knew every freaking goddamm thing from the very first fucking day! I so pray he's been kidding otherwise he's dead for making me go through hell these two weeks! His words left me baffled i just starred at him with my mouth ajar i was still laying on his chest, i think he figured the question i soo wanted to voice out but failed miserably....

" i knew it nandini, the deal you and cabir had..i knew everything!" he stated looking at me, his brown orbs blank yet the powerful gaze that he possessed it felt as if he was starring through me..

" how!" is everything that i could utter as the surprise took over me.

" you remember the day you accidentally got locked in the storeroom and i found you there..i wouldn't know that you were stuck if i mistakenly didn't click on something that lead the cctv footage to pop up. After you left i thought of having a close look at the scene just to make sure all of that wasn't planned, i monitored the past two three days footage myself including that days to make sure there are no loop holes i am missing out on and in all the searching i came across this one footage with you and cabir...

I was about to skip it when i heard my name and intrigued i let it play, i was stunned....maybe a little hurt that cabir told you things, i knew he didn't reveal much almost nothing still i felt betrayed, so from that moment i played my own dice..when you guys thought i did things according go you but the twist here was you were doing things that i wanted you to do...the goa thing, you seriously think i couldn't deny sehgal's request to get you on board!? I didn't deny because i wanted you to accompany me..though what followed was serious loops..the motel that wasn't planned, the cliff that wasn't planned, the dance that we had on the cliff that wasn't planned, me stalking you that wasn't planned...."

" i never realized when and how the overly perfect plan that i had to get you blurt the truth out was long forgotten and everything that we lived were real moments together, i never realized when it all went from making plans to making memories.." he revealed everything or maybe not i doubt that after all this revelation i don't think i know anything about him at all..

" nandini" he called out for me but i payed no heed, i was soo into contemplating everything he just said it killed me to hide this very thing from him..the guilt was unbearable, and the day he left for Denmark, he took my heart away with him..i lost all my capabilities to stay sane with the mere thought of loosing him..suddenly all the nights that i spent crying flashed before me..i felt hurt..

" was anything true manik..or everything was just a delusion..i don't even know if the moments we shared were even true...you bonding with my family, us spending time together was that also a part of your plan..was it, say it dammit!" i yelled breaking down all the walls that i held uptight..i sat before him and he layed there startled...

" nandini listen.." he spoke meekly but i didn't let him speak any further..i had enough of the games, now i want it all out..either it is gonna be all real or nothing at all!

" huh! You seriously think you have an explanation for this...do you fucking have any idea how miserable i was when you left..you took all of me with yourself i had nothing..i..i felt so hollow..i couldn't stop blaming myself for ruining the thing that we had..or did we!? Did we had anything in between us...ever..or was it all games and trap and plan that we were tangled in..i know i shouldn't have hid things from you, and trust me i started feeling guilty the moment i realized that we had something beautiful in between us..

I wanted to tell you everything from that very moment but i waited for the right time so that u don't misunderstand me, usdin cabir se baat karneke baad main tumhe sab batane vaali thi but all of that happened  u mistook everything and left..left..me" i never realized when my eyes started spilling tears..i just sat there starring at his pleading brown orbs with mine that screamed for answers..