BROKEN - to be healed by her (manan ff)✔️

71 : Denial and delusions.

Nandini's pov:

      " Manik mujhe mehra mansion jana hai!!" Just as those words made themselves heard, that very moment it occurred to me that I might have messed up real bad.

He stood paralyzed at a spot, his face went blank the void his eyes carried  was clearly evident albiet it stayed for only a fraction of second before he masked it up with a blank one, if I had to be lucid I would say this did manage to pull a few hurt strings in me, the fact that he still prefers to keep his emotions from me did hurt yet, I let it pass well aware that this wasn't as necessary right now.

" Nandini....Don't bring this up ever again! its my past for a reason" he spoke in a periodt tone, making his intentions crystal clear. He looked frightening with a deadpan expression and without a doubt the tone he used was nerve wrecking, even as my mind kept cautioning me about the raging bull and even though completely aware that my following words would probably just be a delebrate waving of a red flag before the already enraged bull. I still chose to turn a blind eye to all of it.

" Yes a past you hadn't had a closure too, for how long do you think not looking at your past in the eye is gonna save you..its high time manik you deserve to get a clousure with it!! not confronting it is going to take you nowhere, you and I are both aware of the repercussions it had..all we can do is try and mend the damage, leaving the wound unattented works like poison, don't you think this poison is seeping into you...you..." I spoke exasperated at his nonchalant tone and dissmisal towards something which should have been done way back in time, unlike all the other times where I chose to respect his space this one was different I ran out of the last string of patience I possesed. 

" Nandini!!!! Don't!" he yelled rather roared, his eyes shut together and previous blank face now writhing in anger, his face crimson with the rage and fist tight shut exhibiting his sheer control over almost erupting anger. I shrieked at my place with his scream not expecting such harsh response.

" why Manik, why is it tormenting for you to handle my words....you know what!! maybe I know, its because deep down even you are well aware of the fact that i spoke nothing but holy truth and that in itself is bugging you, I have been respecting your space and time all along but its about time you realize the more you keep it waiting the more hurt it is going to keep throwing your way....Manik just once please lets go...to the place where it all began!"  this time even I lost my sense of decency bursting right at him, he needs to know anger isn't going to get him anything and he better gets this right through his thick skull that nothing in this world scares me and that could be his anger as well.

he probably didn't thought of this as my response as the astonishment that his face showcased was at my sight. his clenched popping veins seemed to have clamed, a sense of hope rose in me expecting him to be giving a rather sane thought at my words.

" Nandini....I speak with nothing but surety when I say it's my past and I don't want to have anything to do with that place in my present times, do not push me to any extent to claim telling you about my past was the biggest mistake I could have ever commited." Who was I kidding!!! this man has pebbles in the name of  sense, his words and the stern tone spitting nothing but fire my way had no impact on me as such, I seemed to have developed pure resistance against his brutality of words that he was oblivious too.

I almost had my argument aching to leave my burning throat but before that could happen he went striding towards his chair outright showing his disaproval on indulgence in any further word war. I still had my hope in the pretext of having an entire day with him for the necessary convencing but it all went down the drain as I saw him collecting his belongings before ringing someone up.

" Get me the line up for all the meetings that can be possibly sheduled today." he spoke giving me stank eye and I sighed at the ridicule of his behaviour.