BROKEN - to be healed by her (manan ff)✔️

56: Raw and real!

Nandini's pov:
   
                   i heard him narrating everything that happened in the span of few hours and honestly i couldn't believe my ears! I was astound seeing the amount of hatred nyonika had for him, her own flesh and blood!..It felt terrible to imagine the pain he must have gone through not just now but also past so many years, i could just try and imagine everything that he had been through..

my demeanor was stiff, as i didn't knew how possibly am i supposed to react to this, all these plans and plots were wayy to new for me to get used to, i wasn't accustomed to any of these...my life even after amma, appa was always sweet filled with sudden waves of happiness even grief at times, i had my share of problems and low moments but never have i been exposed to such level of hatred and games!

It was taking all of me to soak in everything he revealed first about avya then this, i kind of knew of this being a mere fragment of the story and yet there was so much i didn't knew about....i was so indulged in the hurricane of thoughts i had in my mind that i didn't realize for how long i stood there just gwaking at him..

" nandini...am i forgiven now!?" he asked..his eyes had that pleading innocent look enough to melt me! Infact just one intense eye lock with him and i lose all my sanity..i just can't be angry at me..his voice broke my monologue..now when i was looking at him, i felt soo soo proud to be associated with this man! My eyes held the look of pride in them! He was going through all of this since so long, keeping it all in him, locked up...how suffocating it must have been for him! How..was he even dealing with everything!

Seeing me so unresponsive he looked worried, i was carefully observing his change of expressions, it changed from worried to blank in the Matter of few seconds..i frowned at this!

" do you think we..went too fast! Do  You regret it!" he said struggling to get words right..i realized he was hinting at our kiss..he had a kind of fear in his eyes, fear of seeing the regret in mine! I rolled my eyes internally at this..how on earth does he manage to get all the pessimistic thoughts! Some part of me though went 'aww!' at this, i was sure happy knowing that i hold this important place in his life!

" get this straight in your head mr.manik malhotra..no matter how many things you have kept from me for whichever reason that is..one thing i know for sure is you can never ever hurt me intentionally..even if i don't know a part of you at this moment, i still trust you enough to know that if u have decided to not let me know that for now, you must have given it a thought! And i know by the end i would have all of you raw and real you! I trust you enough manik! Now, about me regretting, then lemme tell you, i can never ever in a million years regret any moment that you have been a part of!

It was not something hasty manik! It was not something impulsive, not a heat of the moment thing, it was pure, way too pure to be regretted...i was sure about it like i have never been for anything in my entire goddamn life..so you better don't dare and spoil my first kiss!" i said as i grabbed him by his collar and pulled him closer to me, my voice stern and sure! I made sure i communicate exactly what i wanted and needed him to know! He gulped a lump seeing me starring at him with determined eyes! He nodded meekly as a reply....

It was now when i realized how close we were to each other, i still had his collor in my hands which i didn't really seem to let go off , i pulled him even close which had him to bend a little owing to our height's...my breaths were in sync with his hot ones that landed right on my upper lips..his hand went to hold me by my waist in a firm grip pulling me closer..my sanity has left my side for a while now and all i knew was it was me and him, closer than ever before..his hot breath raging my inner desires..our eyes locked in a intensely, i had goosebumps all over with this alien feeling!

The kind of feeling that demanded his closeness, the one that hated the thought of going away from him, the one that always wanted his arms to hold me close so close the air struggles to pass through! I stood on his feet as he jerked me closer to him, i tiptoed further to reach his lips...his one hand was around my waist while the other caressed my lower lips slowly..i held onto his collar tightly with my one hand and the other found its way to his silky threads...