You Are So Beautiful To Me...

Chapter 30

Camila's pov

“I give you everything as well as an opportunity to work with me and you can’t even appreciate what i have done for you-’

“I didn’t want this!” 

Every part of me was shaking as my anger fueled me. My outburst stopped my father mid sentence. But I didn't care what he was ranting about all I cared about was wanting the things I wanted and just moments ago i just got back someone I thought I lost forever. But as I stood here staring down my father I can clearly see that I can't let my so called father push me around and expect me to be what he wants me to be.

“I didn’t want any of this…” I repeated as angry tears stung my eyes “ I never wanted to be apart of this company i never asked for the things you do for me because you thought it was what i wanted but you already knew it wasn’t” 

With every word that left my lips I felt a weight leave my chest.

“You say I have no idea what you go through but yet you have no idea what I go through. Do you have any idea what it felt like to watch you and Mama fight almost constantly? Do you have any idea what it was like for me and Sofi when you and Mama were gone and we were basically raised by two strangers?” 

And with every word I saw my father's angry fixtures slowly disappear and became almost sympathetic.

“It was like we were orphans adopted into a home as we wondered where the hell are parents were. I thought it would have gotten better as we got older and finally understood but i guess not because one day we were sat down and were told that our family would be separated because you and Mama could not find a way to work it out and realize that your job isn’t everything!”

I couldn’t really tell what my father was thinking but I knew what I wanted to say now after holding back for so long.

“And now your trying to turn me into you but i don’t want to be someone who does something they hate because it’ll set me for the future. But you know after everything so far...you have yet to consider what i wanted to do for me”

At this point my father wasn’t looking at me as I stood there with tears coming down my cheeks for the thousand times this week.

“For one i want to go to school for what I wanted...i wanted for you and Mama to be okay with each other so that Sofi and I could at least have both our parents there for things like graduation day...but most of all, I want nothing more than to have my father be my father for once instead of someone trying to manage my goddamn life” 

And at this point my chest hurt in a way that was directed towards all the pain I've kept inside over the years of watching as my family fell apart.

“So i’m sorry if i wasn’t there for your company or your meetings that had so much money going around for something you wanted.” i said sighing in defeat “ maybe if you were here, you would have known that i fell in love with someone and i almost lost her forever because of your stupid assistant “ 

And the moment I said ‘I fell in love’ my father looked at me in surprise but in sadness and that was probably the first time in years I've seen him emotional about anything.

“So my bad Papa but i can’t do this anymore” I said and walked backwards and up the stairs. I heard my father call my name but I didn't listen. I went to my room and got a bag in my closet and packed the most valuable things to me. 

I couldn’t stay here anymore with a parent that wouldn’t consider their own child's wants in life or needs like their support. After so many years of hoping that my father would change and so many times of making excuses that he actually cared, he still didn’t see that. And even my mother has changed and has apologized and expected my life choices for what I wanted. So if my father could not understand that then at least my mother would.