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It had been a struggle to keep my mind from wondering to her.
It had been a week, too long since the last time I seen her. Days since I had looked into her sweet chocolate brown eyes, seen the way the air blew against her soft pale skin. My wolf was angry with me, had been ever since I left her behind in Louisiana. He begged me to keep watch over her but it would only make it worse for him if I heard anything about her. At least that's what I kept telling myself.
I would feel pathetic enough to send some men to drive out there and check in on her every once in a while. Sometimes I would hope I would hear her soft voice in hopes she would be here in front of me. I had never thought it would be this bad.
So I distracted myself with anything I could get ahold of. Extra paperwork, training with the pack, taking patrol duty, or anything to keep my mind from Aurelia. My wolf kept out of contact with me for a few days, he still won't speak to me ever since I kept him away from her. She was special to him, something extraordinary, and so very far from reach.
It was strange how much he cared for her, when I first met her, he grew attached and it annoyed me to no end. I didn't expect feelings to grow within me as well. I kept telling my wolf it was better this way. When I mentioned finding a mate, he would never act upon it or say anything but only kept close and attached to the strange human girl. She was the only one he would ever act this way for, she also made me want to be a better man and over the past few months, I had tried to be just so I could be closer to being worthy of her.
But I would never truly deserve her.
After keeping those secrets, I thought she would never have to find out, especially from Johnathon. The hurt in her eyes that filled with tears that made my wolf whimper made me realize I would never make her happy but the opposite. She knows about mates and when I tried to stay close to her like the selfish man I was, she backed away.
I had fallen in love and I was going to enact on my feelings for once. For once, I wanted to chase after something I wanted but an angel like her could never love a beast like me. I learned to accept that now matter how much I wanted her, a girl like her would never need a monster like me, it was the truth that I couldn't hide from. My wolf said otherwise, he wanted to protect her and always keep her close even if I didn't want that.
When I left her, the last thing I wanted was for her not to hate me. I thought after finding out about the deal me and Leon had made a long time ago, she would never want to speak to me or even be around me ever again. She knew I was a liar, a monster that could never be trusted. When she mentioned us being friends, It bothered me and it bothered my wolf as well. I made sure she knew we could never be just friends after everything we've been through.
I promised my wolf that Johnathon would pay for everything. For hurting innocent people and for ruining the relationship between Aurelia and I. Because I cared for her so much, I had to leave her behind not just to protect her from Johnathon but from me. I didn't want to hurt her anymore with my problems. I would always watch over her, somehow if need be only from a distance, check in on her regularly keep her and her loved ones safe, even the bastard she would eventually fall for.
