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This time, I didn't wake up the same.
Waking up had always been a struggle for me, but today was earnestly difficult. I was probably never going to find myself out of my bed from the time I spent fighting with my thoughts and emotions. I didn't want to get up and face my biggest fears of what today held.
I tucked my knees into my chest, wrapping my arms tightly around them. Resting my face atop my knees, staring about the large room from where I sat on the bed. My eyes could see but it was as if my mind was not able to register my sight, my mind off into oblivion, something so restless but somewhat helped distract me from the pain that resided within my chest. Perhaps this was how it's meant to be, the feeling of possibly losing someone after falling so hard. It hurt so much because the feelings I felt were genuine and I wasn't sure if I would ever be able to let go.
Every time I would think, my mind would chose to torture me with thoughts of Elias. His warm and addictive touch that made my knees grow weak. His intense silver eyes that I could drink in every moment if I could. The way he held me in his strong hands, I felt safe, never wanting his skin to leave mine. The words I thought I'd never hear imprinted my mind and heart.
"I've been pushing you away not because I don't love you but because I do."
I was left rendered speechless. Still to this moment, I couldn't begin to process how much more difficult this made everything for me. A part of me wishes I hadn't ever met Elias, I didn't get to know the good and the bad parts of him, but I loathed that because it connected straight with my heart. My heart wasn't one to be listened to, it was foolish and naive. It didn't care if it's love was a hybrid alpha it simply loved, it didn't care but simply loved him for what the heart had seen. My heart didn't care that I was in emotional turmoil because of him, at the expectancy of what was going to happen later tonight.
I knew there was a possibility that Elias was going to find his mate tonight at the ball. My heart begged me to stay but I knew I couldn't stay. I had to get away from here. Away from him.
A gentle knock came at the door, successfully capturing my attention. The door opens and I look up to meet my mother's gaze, a delighted glint in her hazel eyes. My brows furrowed. Behind her stood Veda, smiling with her perfect pearl teeth. I couldn't point out who else was at the doorway but the noises sounded quite familiar.
I didn't notice the cake that my mother held in her hands until Veda helped light the candles. They each began walking inside before they began to sing Happy Birthday to me.
I couldn't help but smile a bit as Danny and Corbyn stood behind them, singing at an obnoxiously loud volume. I blushed in embarrassment, letting out a light laugh. Where was the mute button when you needed it?
