(I don't know why)
In the middle of the night
(I keep) coming back to
(Thinking) of you
When I get lonely
Though (it was) only
A few months we spent together
And it was nowhere near (forever)
It feels like it was
I wish there was never an "us"
Why can I so easily remember
The way (it felt) to be with you
It was so (contradictory), for
I loved it, but (I hated) it too
I was not (who) I was supposed to be
I was not where (I should have been)
I wish you hadn't gotten close to me
But I'm not sure if (I regret being friends)
(You) are so goddamn hard to read
And you've (always) been a mystery
And I know that's why you liked me
Because I made it so goddamn easy
And when we were close I hated it
But from afar it (looked so good)
(So I only made distance bit by bit)
I wish I had just understood
But here (I am) and here you are
There's no (turning back now)
It's been (so long); we've come so far
So why do you (still) make me frown?
The thoughts of (you) still (plague me)
They won't (let me sleep)
They won't (let me be)
Why won't they just (leave)?
They sneak up in the dead of night
When (I'm) laying awake in bed
Just (hoping) and trying with all my might
T(he)y (would) bother someone else instead
But I just toss and turn
And I (drown) in despair
How is this what I've earned?
Why is life not fair?
(I am so)rry
But that's not what I (mean)
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Poems (collection 1.0)
Poetryplease don't read this (i laugh here, but i'm not joking). this is a relic. consider this the museum of my progression in writing. you can find the better (marginally) stuff from this one in "Poems (collection 2.0)". Thoughtful, often sad, and angr...
