I romanticize the little things
But I ignore how you feel
If you like me
You'll soon discover
That what you thought
I was
I am not
I am vicious
And vile
A monster at heart
If you worm your way to it
Then maybe I'll consider
The feelings I have for you
But just because
I act all sweet
And innocent
And cuddly
I am not what you think
I will be what you want
But truly
I am your worst enemy
No
I do not believe in true love
Or what it does to people
I believe in loving someone
For who they are
But not romantically
It's just lust
And chemicals
And physical reactions
No
I don't believe in unconditional love
For we all are selfish at heart
And that will never change
True love does not exist
Because we all have expectations
And desires
And love that does not ask
Is nowhere to be found
In our human hearts
So
What I'm trying to say
Is that
When I see her smile
And hear her laugh
And stare into her eyes
And know the things she loves
I know that I love her
But I say nothing
Because I know where it will go
And I'd rather keep her close
Than have her even closer for a while
And then gone forever
Love and lust are separate things
And I am incapable of much of either
I try
But my heart is cracked
And glued together haphazardly
So no light gets in
But it's still not right
And in the end
I push everyone away
Because I hate myself so much
I make everyone else hate me too
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Poems (collection 1.0)
Poetryplease don't read this (i laugh here, but i'm not joking). this is a relic. consider this the museum of my progression in writing. you can find the better (marginally) stuff from this one in "Poems (collection 2.0)". Thoughtful, often sad, and angr...
