I am alive but I feel as if I wasn't. I feel numb and very sensitive at the same time. I don't see the point of living anymore. I put a mask on everyday showing people I am happy or at least not extremely depressed, not like anybody would care. I want to be able to wake up and just be happy. I want to have a positive perspective in life but all I could think about is, "What's the point of this?" I want to help my family, be successful in life to support them but all I do is sleep, I can't even get up in the morning, even that is too much for me. My family don't say anything, they say I can do it, that I am smart, nice, positive, a good leader. They tell me that I should be myself without being embarrassed about what people think. I have very low self esteem and I feel that I'm not pretty and that I will never be able to achieve anything in life. I'm just so tired of life.
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The things I think of when I'm alone
PoetryUnbearable pain that is expressed and acknowledged becomes bearable. But people who have suffered from BPD received no such responses in their childhood. Therefore, they are stuck in the past, trying to elicit what they needed as a child-validation...
