Happy New Year !! Hope 2020 has been a smooth sailing one for you so far 😌🙌🏻
Well about me... I'm not sure?
But I guess this is one of the obstacles and part of the healing journey?
When you finally accepted that you and your lost love were never meant to be, that you had enough and is better off without him lingering around you.
You no longer want to have anything to do with him ever. He's all in the past and 2020 is a new year, a new beginning.
Then there he goes again.
Does he wants me back? In my dreams I wished.
It's way more complicated.
He doesn't wants me back but the way he acts is different now.
He starts to change the way he interacts with you ONCE AGAIN.
You thought you were over him. Maybe it was just a delusion or maybe it was just a pushing force.
But now you know you are not. You still loved him with every inch of your soul.
You know that you might fall for him again although you have warned yourself countless times not to.
You know that he would still send you crashing down with a slight move.
You know that you would be vulnerable again in front of him.
It brings back those fond memories again and oh gosh, you really hate yourself for loving him this much.
But my dear strong baby girl... don't you forget...
How much he hurt you?
How it's all in the past now?
How long you took to get over and accept the way he treats you coldly?
Don't lose all those months of hard work just for a moment of missing or a moment of care. You know he wouldn't do the same back for you so continue doing what's right for you girl.
You can do this.
YOU ARE READING
my lost love
Non-Fictionhe was my everything, my world but he was also the one who got away; just a diary of my feelings NO fancy content or vocabulary thank you for taking your time to read! 🤗
