All that unnecessary drama, hate and judgement.
It saddens me. It makes me feel empty. It makes me feel sick.
It is mad.
I hate and love you with passion.
I really simply wish to just keep my emotions on hold and in control.
But I can't.
You still matter so much to me. You are always on my mind even if we are apart.
These emotions are destroying me. Do you know how much I am dying inside?
You know how much I love to pretend putting on a strong front.
I want to live better and happier.
All I ever know of is doing my best, showing the best version of myself and that I am better off without you.
But you don't know how broken I am.
Do you subconsciously seek out for me just like I do?
You were the best and my everything I wished for.
I am learning how to be strong, alone. Without you.
But I am still scared. Afraid.
You were my safe home. I trusted you wholeheartedly.
But I had to lose you to find and love me.
I grew.
I found better friends, opportunities and I improved myself. I learnt to appreciate everything even more. I learnt that nothing last forever.
But it still sucks dear. It's tough without you. I still hate it that I can no longer rely on you.
Do you ever feel the same?
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my lost love
Non-Fictionhe was my everything, my world but he was also the one who got away; just a diary of my feelings NO fancy content or vocabulary thank you for taking your time to read! 🤗
