my lost love

Ending?

It's been a while since I updated. 

You have been on mind lately. Actually, you were always on my mind. You never really left. 

I know that you know, 

That I sort of dated an unavailable guy last month and it did not work out. 

But that was not it. 

That short fling I had proved to me some things I did not knew about. 

I felt lonely. 

Maybe he reminds me of you. He really resembles you. 

Maybe I still wished it was you. 

To you, 

It may seemed like I fully moved on.

And I think maybe things are better that way.

I stopped holding expectations for us. 

Because I don't think things will ever be the same for both of us. 

To be honest, it still breaks me to think of it this way. 

I just want to continue being by your side. I just want to continue being in your life.  

I want you to be happy. I want to support you.

I am really scared of losing you.

Nothing else really matters to me anymore. 

The past, our relationship, my feelings. 

I would gladly give up on everything for you even at the stake of myself.

You know I would and I have done it. 

I know I will love again. But I don't think you will ever stop being in my heart. 

You made me realise that maybe it's possible for someone to truly love a person forever. 

You are my one and first true love. I don't know if I am to you. 

I guessed you really moved on for good and I am happy that the both of us are in a better place. 

I hope that it only keeps getting better. 

I think that it is important for us to meet the right one in life,

Rather than the one you love with all your heart. 

As painful as it sounds.