my lost love

On Your Own

It is sure important to have your own support system after a breakup. 

Family and Friends. People who make you feel loved and valued, even after your heart have been torn to many pieces by him/her. 

But the sad and harsh reality is the support system you thought you had, the people around you are all just "fair weather friends". 

Even your dear family and true friends are only there for you temporarily. They don't have all the time and attention in the world for you. 

You are the only one who can help yourself. Ultimately, you are on your own. 

It sucks but that's life. We came into this world alone and we are bound to leave it alone. You have to learn to embrace and enjoy your solitude. 

I know it's difficult and it's something that I am still trying to manage. Trust me, you will do so much better learning how to be on your own, rather than relying on others. 

No one will understand yourself better than you do. No one will always be there for you till death, except for yourself. No one will love yourself more than you do. 

I am utterly grateful for everyone who helped me through this breakup. 

Shout out to the guy who fell in love with me despite me in my worst state shortly after the breakup. Shout out to my new group of friends who were there constantly checking up on me and listening to my rants. 

Sadly, I guess we weren't meant to last as well. However, I am still grateful for having to known you guys during this period. You guys brought warmth to my heart. You guys helped me became confident and to believe in myself again. You guys really played an important role in my life and helped me to moved on. I know I wouldn't have been able to do it without you guys. 

To whoever out there who needs to hear this :

When you rely your happiness on someone else, you will never know to walk away and find your own true happiness regardless of how unhappy your are. Because all the happiness u ever knew, was because of that 1 person.

Stop caring about what others think of you and start living for yourself. Don't end up regretting the decisions u didn't make because of someone else's judgement or what others told u to. Be confident and trust yourself.

Always stay true to yourself because the only one who will really know, understand and stick by you throughout is YOURSELF.

Lastly honey, I want you to finally let go now, if you know you have done your best. 

I know some things don't go the way you did expect. Some people were not what you thought they were. However, please do know that it isn't your fault. Don't blame yourself for something that is out of your control. 

Forgive yourself and stop doing yourself foul by holding on. Stop giving the wrong people the chances they don't deserve. 

I want you to know that you are precious, for having loved someone strongly with all of your heart despite the risks of getting nothing but pain in return. 

I am proud of you. 

Now, you deserve so much more and it's time to free yourself. To wait for what's worthy of you to come your way.