BAD HABIT |Billie Eilish|

PE class

On Monday I finally decided to stop skipping my PE class and as a fucking joke it was the first day of outside practice. Usually PE class was in the gym but since it was pretty warm outside we just joined our woman's soccer team on the field. They were warming up on the left side and we were on the right. 

Roe was on her period, Atiya was sick, Kendall was hanging out with Billie and their 'popular' squad near the bleachers and the only one person who was talking to me there was Liv. I've never talked to her before we both joined the cheerleading team and actually she was nice and funny. 

Liv is that type of girls who's always goofy and talkative. And, oh my god, her style is something else, her whole personality is something else. It felt like we were friends for years even if we met just yesterday. 

"I hate this class, for real, we're a cheerleaders and why the fuck we need to attend PE? Fucking unfair" Liv fixed her hair, she made two messy braids and it looked dope with her split hair dye. 

I sat in the middle of the field, covering my eyes with my hand because of the bright sun rays. Liv did the same, breathing heavily. Our teacher told us to run around the field and then he left so no one was actually warming up. 

"I would love to drop this class, it's annoying" I groaned, massaging my forearm because my whole body was sore because of the yesterday's cheerleading practice. "Do you want to study together today? Today my family is having a dinner at my mom's and I'm not invited since she's pissed off because of me being gay. It's only me and my father's daughter and it's hella boring"

"Your father's daughter? It's kinda your sister, I guess" Liv raised her eyebrows, leaning on her elbows. I didn't want to call Mariyka my sister but she was my sister and I hated to explain the whole story. 

"Yeah, but we have different mothers and it's not like we're close. I mean, we are barely talking" I shrugged, and completely closed my eyes as Liv grabbed my hand, looking at my new tattoo. I got a floral tattoo and actually it looked cool but I wasn't sure if I had to cover my old one or it was just a wrong intention. Anyways, there were no way back and I liked the way how it look on my wrist. 

"Oof, okay, got it" 

I heard how someone kicked the ball and after a few seconds I felt how it hit my chest. A little bit lower my collarbone and, I swear, I heard a weird noise like something crunched in my chest. Then it clicked in my head. My pacemaker. 

"Are you fucking blind?" Liv yelled at someone and I raised my head, pressing my hands to my chest. Of course it was Noah, who the fuck else could do that? "You okay?" Her voice softened as she looked at me and I was literally in panic. If it was damaged it's a fucking big ass trouble. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to find it under my skin but it moved to the left side a little bit and I knew that it was so bad. "Tin?"

"I need to see a doctor" I carefully got up as Liv helped me, holding me tightly. 

"Are you fucking dumb?" She growled as Noah approached us with an annoying smile on her face. If I wasn't scared for my pacemaker and weak as fuck I would beat the fuck out of her. I guess we drawn attention, a lot of people came closer to figure out what was happening. 

"You okay?" Billie asked me quietly as she and her friends approached us. I was about to answer but Liv cut her off.

"No, the fuck not. Your damn friend hit her with a ball" I groaned because I hate situations like this. It's always happening with me and I'm tired to be a nerd who can't defend herself. It's fun for more popular kids to make fun of everyone who's not like them. 

"I wasn't asking you" Billie hissed at Liv. 

They both were about to start an argument but I grabbed Liv by her sleeve and dragged her to the bleachers. I had no energy to talk to others or to explain what was happening. I just wanted to visit a doctor and rest because this whole thing made me kinda nervous. I've been told that if I get a punch in my chest and move my pacemaker I'll probably need a new one. And it's a motherfucking surgery. And it's hella expensive.