BAD HABIT |Billie Eilish|

Jasmine

A/N:

So, I wanna make it clear about all that pacemaker thing. It's a mechanical thing that is connected to a heart and located under the skin on the chest. 

Tinley doesn't need a new heart and she got it because of bradycardia. It's when your heartbeat is lower than 40. It's not a decease its a consequence. I've never mentioned her decease but y'all find out later 😉

It's not that dangerous surgery but it's hella expensive. Especially in the US and especially then it's the second surgery. 

If y'all have any questions about a pacemaker or about the whole book feel free to comment😊

Also I promised to update with a huge chapter but no😒 But I promised to update today so yeah, here we are 

It's been two weeks and a half since my doctor's appointment. Nothing changes, to be honest, sometimes I feel like that machine inside of me kinda stops working for a second, my heartbeat is intermittent and I can't help it. Dad was stressed out as never before, my grandmother gave us 5 mote thousands and we had 35 thousand dollars. Still not enough. 

My biggest support were my friends, they we were spending almost all out time together. I never missed cheerleading practices even if I couldn't actually practice I learned moves and just spent time with girls. Stella threw a casting and found three more girls for our team and they were preparing for a soccer game that will be held in our school the next Friday. 

This morning was kinda easier than all mornings for a few weeks, I woke up in a good mood, I slept for the whole night and it was a sunny day. I decided not to go to school and dad let me do that because my health was his main interest at that time. 

I put on my favorite hoodie, I mean, the one that Billie gave me was my favorite but I stopped wearing her clothes since our breakup. So, my old hoodie is it. 

"Breakfast is ready" Dad yelled from the kitchen and I shoved my phone in the pocket and quickly headed downstairs. "You look a lot better" He smiled at me as I flopped down on my chair and put my elbows on the table. 

"So I was looking bad?" I raised my eyebrows, laughing at him. 

"No, you were looking sad" He put a plate with my favorite pancakes in front of me and, I swear, I fell in love. "How do you feel?" 

"Actually, pretty good" I looked around for a fork and eventually gave up, starting to eat with my hands. 

"Tinley, maybe it would be fair to tell Billie?" Dad started slowly, sitting on the chair next to me. "I'm sure she's still caring about you"

"Dad, she'll find out eventually" I stared at my plate, sighing. "We're not together anymore and she don't have to know everything about me now"

"But what if it was Billie who needs a surgery. Would you wanna know?" 

"She has money, she would do a surgery at that very moment when a doctor said her about it. I'm not her" I chewed on my lower lip.

"But Billie-" I groaned and cut him off.

"What about Billie? We broke up, it's over" I inhaled, trying to calm down. "I'm trying to move on and you all are not helping. And all that I hear is Billie, Billie, Billie" 

"Okay, sorry" Dad sighed, putting his hands together. "Just do what you feel is right" He ruffled my hair and I giggled childishly. 

Flashback