BAD HABIT |Billie Eilish|

Cheerleading

"It was 7 years ago" I rolled my eyes, laying on my bed and reading my history book. Roe was annoying me for one hour already. She insisted on me joining our new cheerleading team since Stella convinced our principal to let her organize it all. And somehow I managed to tell them that I was doing gymnastic when I was younger. 

"It doesn't matter, you're skinny, gorgeous and I hope you're still flexible" She grabbed my book and threw it away. "Come on, I can't see you depressed anymore. You need to distract and it's a good way" She gave me her pleading eyes and I groaned, burying my face in my pillow. "It's good for your college application" 

"Fine, what I need to do?" I mumbled, rolling my eyes as Roe grinned, clapping her hands. 

"Their first practice tomorrow at 4pm, school's gym" Okay, I'm super lazy but I always wanted to change that and why I can't use my fucking sadness over my ex girlfriend as a reason to start working out? I had so much free time and I could'n help it but all that I did was overthinking. 

"If I break my neck, I swear, I'll kill you" I warned her. "I didn't know Stella was that much into cheerleading"

"She's super girly, I thought that you're the biggest girl in our little squad but Stella is a whole girlishness" We giggled because it was so fucking true. I've never seen her in pants, I doubt if she has something beside dresses and skirts. "It was one of her dreams, I think. Maybe I should join soccer team?" 

"Mhm, definitely" I laughed, shaking my head. "You hungry?"

"Maybe a little bit" I nodded and reached for my snack box under my bed. 

Billie used to keep all her snacks under her bed and I kinda wanted to do the same. I guess, it's only one thing that I kept in my room that was reminding me of her. Talking about things that remind me of her, I booked my tattoo appointment on today's evening. 

I want to cover my hearts tattoo with something else because shit makes me sad and I don't want to keep it on my body forever. Also my dad already know about my tattoos so I don't have to do something barely visible.  

"Do you wanna watch Netflix?" Roe put a whole cookie in her mouth and I laughed at the way she pronounced words. 

"Sure" I smirked, grabbing my laptop from the floor. We decided to study together but we both knew that we usually end up doing nothing but watching series and eating junk food. 

***

It seemed like the last class was endless, it was an art class and I was definitely not in the mood to draw anything. Also Mrs. Ponso was not in the mood too so she already yelled at me twice. I was the only one student who wasn't able to draw by myself, she controlled my every move and she even sat next to me. 

"Horrible shadows, Tinley" She shook her head and I sighed loudly.

"Okay, that's how I like to draw shadows" I looked at her with annoyed facial expression. "Why are you judging only my work?" 

"I'm your teacher" She said sternly and grabbed my pencil. Oh god, I hope she'll start wearing a bra because she touched my arm with her nipple twice already and Mrs. Ponso is the last person whose nipples I wanna touch. "I'll show you the right way" 

She started drawing shadows and the bell rang. I didn't even know that it was possible to grab my stuff and run away that fast but somehow I managed to do it. It took me only a few seconds to leave the classroom. 

I put all my books in the locked and took my t-shirt, shorts and snickers. I had only ten more minutes until my first cheerleading practice and even if Roe managed me to join and Stella was our couch, I was kinda nervous.