BAD HABIT |Billie Eilish|

I hate you

A/N:

Guys, I'm sorry for these months of me not writing. I had no motivation and no ideas and that whole plot about summer was annoying me, so the only one solution for me is to make a huge time skip. I'll make a few flashbacks to summer in the future, but for now I'm sorry!

"Tinley, faster!" Billie whisper yelled as she showed up in the window. I put one more package of chips in my backpack, closed the box of snacks that was in the camp kitchen and ran to the window sill. We ran out of snacks a few days ago and Roe came up with the idea of night time picnic today so we decided to go for a little innocent robbery. 

I handed the backpack to Billie and quickly looked around just to check if I didn't left any evidence. I mean, we stole snacks and I doubt that camp staff won't notice it but do I really care? Also, I really hate to be the tiniest one in the friends group because climbing in the windows kinda became my hobby. 

"Okay, now let's get the fuck out of here" Roe started walking faster and we followed. It was pretty cold outside and I don't know how comfortable it's gonna be near the lake but we got blankets and Theo brought vodka. I swear, this man always has his vodka. 

We ran as fast as we can, I almost tripped over my own leg twice and I don't know how I managed to get to the place they picked for a picnic and don't break my leg or something. 

When we arrived everyone seemed to be pretty drunk ant it's always like that, these idiots can't wait even a few minutes so I guess they started drinking as soon as their asses touched the blankets. 

"Hi, my babies!" Stella yelled with her spread arms for a hug and Kendall shushed her. " What?" 

"Shut up, you idiot, they gonna catch us" She slurred her words and Billie and I looked at each other, sighing. How the fuck they managed to get drunk so fast. What a talent. 

"Okay, everyone should shut up and we are good" Roe grabbed a bottle of vodka from Stella's hands, taking a sip. "You all are hella loud"

I sat on the blanket near the tree, leaning on it and finally resting. It was a hard ass day and I barely got any chances just to chill and now I'm tryna fucking relax. I didn't know that camps are hella exhausting or it's just me who hates physical activity. 

Billie flopped down near me, leaning on my shoulder and I sighed, but didn't make her get up or something. I was still mad at her and all that shit but I obviously didn't want to ruin the picnic for my friends so I just ignored her and tried to pretend that everything is fine. 

"Hey, do you wanna drink?" Bil asked, looking at me. "Babe?" She leaned closer, touching my cheek with her nose. 

"Yes, I do" I grabbed a cup that was near me and handed it to Roe, so she fill it for me. Billie just sighed, realizing that I don't want to talk to her.

***

I was squeezing the steering wheel too hard, but there was no other ways to calm myself down. I knew that when I get out of that place it's gonna be different. Everything gonna be different. So that feeling of everything breaking down was killing me inside. 

I looked in the mirror the last time before getting out of the car, making sure I look good as if it would change anything. Deep inside I knew everything but I have to hear it, I just wanna hear these fucking words. 

When I got out of the car cold wind hit me and it was pretty unusual for September. So I hugged myself, heading to the entrance of a small restaurant. I found that brunette girl as soon as I entered the building, she was at the table near the windows, with pony tale and busy with her phone.