The Playboy's Setback (R-18 Vikings Series)

Chapter 40: own

Despite of the pestilence that the world is facing right now, let us look up and trust the Almighty. Let's pray for our family and friends. Not just our loved ones but also all the people around us. The virus is slowly eating up thousands and we're not gonna let that happen because we have the grace of God in us. He is our greatest protector, our safe haven, and our weapon against diseases and destructions.

Father God, be with us.
❤️

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
🌻

Patricia

Ako ang talo sa huli. He wasn't giving me any options of getting away from him. Inihatid niya nga ako sa assigned room namin nila Catalya.

"Kaya ko naman na ang sarili ko, Axel. I don't need your help" I don't need you anymore.

Nasa labas kami ng kuwarto.

He smirked darkly. "You're really staying away from me huh?" Tanong niya na ikinatahimik ko. Para namang oo ang katahimikan ko para sa kanya kasi tumango siya at malamig na ngumiti. "It feels like you're killing me bit by bit, Patricia" bulong niya, halos di ko na marinig. Ngunit di ako natinag. That doesn't change the fact that he cheated. That he fucked his ex. That he fucked around while I was away.

Umayos siya ng tayo saka namulsa. "Don't walk around after dinner. Kung gusto mong maglakad-lakad, isama mo sina Zarena o si Catalya. Don't wander alone. If possible, don't go out and come to your room after supper" ngayon, mas dumoble ang kalamigan sa boses niya. Yung emosyon sa mga mata niya kanina, tinatago na niya ngayon. It looks empty.

Tama ang desisyon kong ito. Breaking up with him is the right thing to do right?

I did it. I've done it already but why is it breaking me badly? Bakit hindi lang puso ko ang masakit? Bakit pati katawan at kaluluwa ko? Pakiramdam ko, nawalan ako ng kalahating parte. And losing a piece of me makes me feel so helpless.

Huminga ako ng malalim. I'm doing the right thing for the both of us. I know. Kaya naman tinignan ko siya ng buong tapang sa mata. "Please stay away from me, Axel. If possible, please do so. And thank you for carrying my bag and for walking me here. Pero kung puwede lang sana ngayong wala ng tayo, panindigan nating dalawa iyon"

He smirked. "Ikaw lang naman ang nagsasabing wala ng tayo. I didn't let go, Patricia. You did. And until now, I'm not letting you off the hook" his jaw clenched. "I goddamn miss you, babe" bulong niya.

Not that way Axel please. Mas paniniwalaan ko pa kung sasabihin niyang na-miss niya si Amanda.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko dahil sa kakaibang pakiramdam na bumalot sa akin pagkarinig ko sa sinabi niya. He looked away.

"I won't be around during dinner. Please eat well" tanging sabi niya at napatitig na lang ako sa likod niya nang maglakad na siya palayo.

I shut the door after and fixed my gaze on the wall. Mabilis ang pintig ng puso ko pero nasasaktan parin ito. Hanggang ngayon, hindi nito matanggap tanggap ang panlolokong nadatnan ko pag-uwi ko mula sa states. I can't get off of my mind the naked figure of Axel and Amanda on his bed. At sa bawat pagbalik ng imaheng iyon sa isip ko, nabibiyak ang puso kong nasasakal na.

"Get over it Patricia. Get over him" I mumbled to myself before proceeding to the bathroom.

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