The Playboy's Setback (R-18 Vikings Series)

Chapter 9: Rebound

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I needed to lose you to love me
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Patricia

Natagalan kami sa pag-MOMOL dahil ayaw talagang tumigil ni Axel.

I heard him breathe sharply.

"It's so hard to resist you. Fuck your goddamn period" umigting ang panga niya nang lumayo siya sa akin. Ang tingin niya ay nakakapaso pa din.

Ngumiti lang ako tsaka kinuha ang bra ko. I wore it as well as my shirt. Pagkatapos non, pinaupo niya ako sa kandungan niya at ibinaon niya ang mukha niya sa leeg ko.

"I hate it when you have your period. Tsk, bakit ba kasi kayo dinadatnan? Nakakabitin, tangina" mahina akong natawa dahil sa sinabi niya. Frustration is evident in his voice.

Kahit nakasandal ang likod ko sa dibdib niya at nasa tv ang tingin, alam kong nakamukmok na siya ngayon.

But my mind drifted somewhere. I've been wanting to ask him a question.

Huminga ako ng malalim at hinawakan ang kamay niyang nakayapos sa baywang ko. "Axel can I ask you something?" Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko nang magsimulang gumalaw ang palad niya na nasa tiyan ko. "Yeah. Go on" he said hoarsely.

"Answer me truthfully" I muttered.

Huminga muli ako ng malalim. "Why do you have sex with me even when you are in a relationship with another woman?" Buong tapang na tanong ko. Tumigil ang paghagod ng palad niya sa tiyan ko. Hindi ko iyon pinansin.

I want to know it. Because it really hurts when I realize that my role in his life is being his bed warmer at night. Ako ang nagpapainit sa gabi niya. He uses me at night when he wants to release his frustrations and stresses.

Mahirap tanggapin kung ano lang ang posisyon ko sa buhay niya. I want to ask for more. I want to be his more. Pero alam ko namang sa huli ay hindi masusuklian ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

Because I know he's still in love with his ex. He's not over her yet. And I know he is not capable of loving someone else aside from his first love.

"Please answer me, Axel" mahinang sambit ko.

I heard him breathe heavily. "Because when I am with you, I feel safe. Sa'yo lang ako kompurtable. With you, I can be me. No pretentions. And I fuck you because you make me crazy.." saad niya. Rinig ko ang paghinga niya ng malalim. "and you.. you make me forget about her" halos hindi ko na marinig ang mga huling katagang binitawan niya.

How I wish I didn't hear it.

Mapakla akong ngumiti. Masakit. Parang tinutusok muli ang puso ko.

It hurts because it seems like I'm just the antagonist to their love story. Pakiramdam ko, rebound lang ako.

I bit my lip to stop the tears that formed in my eyes. Walang iiyak, Pat. I said to myself and closed my eyes.

Who am I kidding anyway? I am definitely a rebound. I'm just a woman in his life whom he fucks. I'm the other woman he uses while waiting for his first love. Ako yung babaeng patay na patay sa taong may ibang mahal.

And that sucks.

Tumikhim ako. "Okay" pilit pinatatag kong sabi. One word was the best that I can vocalize because my voice is shaky.