Team (discontinued for now)

Chapter 54: Details

(Artwork above belongs to HayoonA! Sorry the chapter is like a week or two late, homework's been killing me and I'm really fucking done with the corona virus. Hope you guys are staying safe! Next upload might not be on a Wednesday, but I'll keep y'all updated anyways.)

Abby frowned rather dumbly, like the gears in her head had only just started shifting. Lilly forced herself not to look away, awaiting Abby's reaction beyond a "what?" with nervous anticipation.

She internally groaned when the red-head let out a laugh in disbelief.

"You're kidding, right?" Abby peered at the taller girl with twinkling eyes, likely from amusement at the ridicilous idea of 'taking a break'.

"I'm sorry, Abby.....I just....I really need a break." Lilly's purplish eyes looked anywhere but at Abby now. She felt somewhat ashamed, even though the end result of their break would probably lead to their relationship becoming better.

They weren't toxic or anything, not at all. But Lilly realized that she'd become too dependent on Abby. Like she was a flower and Abby was the sun. Flowers need sunlight to grow. Lilly needed Abby to fill in the void that had formed itself inside her as of last year.

Lilly didn't know what was wrong with her....... Sometimes she just felt so, so sad to an almost unbearable point. And then she was really angry again, for no reason. Or overly excited and happy.

Unlike Abby, who's mood swings were relatively tame (minus on the nights she was horribly insecure about herself), Lilly tended to be.......more extreme. Although it had only occurred once before, somewhere in the middle of last year, it had been awful.

Lilly had been lying in bed for a full-on week. Like all the energy had suddenly been drained from her body. She'd gotten a bad score on her test Monday. And, although yes, Lilly had definitely cried about it to herself in the privacy of the school's bathroom, she hadn't expected herself to be that upset about it.

During those seven days, Lilly hadn't worried about any of the things she'd usually stress over. At the time, she hadn't given her unattended homework any thought, she hadn't cared about the way the rest of The Funtimes had come into her room every day to check up on her, and she hadn't reacted at all to her mother's sobbing on the other side of the door when she still hadn't come out after the third day.

Her dad managed to convince her to drink a glass of water, somehow. Looking back on it, Lilly had probably decided to ignore the pill her dad had sneaked into it as well. But whatever that pill was for, it ended up managing to make Lilly feel like herself again a few weeks later.

Lilly didn't want to go through that ever again. And if she did, she wanted to be able to fix the problem herself, without causing her parents or friends or Abby to worry themselves sick about her.

Her parents hadn't gotten her checked for it yet, but Lilly's mom was a psychiatrist, and she'd told Lilly she suspected she had *******, something Lilly didn't remember. All she remembered was her mom telling her she had to take something called Lithium two times a day, with or without food. And Lilly did it without question, because she never questioned anything her parents did. They were always right.

But Lilly hated the pills, and as off recently, she'd started to pretend taking them. She flushed her pill this morning. They made her feel numb and stoic. Sometimes to the point she didn't even want to hang out with anyone for days on end.

"You're serious.....?" Abby looked genuinely heartbroken for a second, Lilly visibly winced at it. "What did I do wrong?"

Before Lilly could reply, Abby was talking again.