Raw [Vkook]

38: Recovering Through

In My Blood - Shawn Mendes

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It's been a while since Jungkook has had a long night like how he did the past few nights. The last time was when Jimin and Taehyung were both going through their own dilemmas. At least now Jungkook wasn't alone since Taehyung refused to leave him alone.

The problem was that Yeosang refused to receive any help.

He didn't want Jungkook or Taehyung to help him, even when he would be a shaking mess on the floor as he begged to give him some drug at all.

Cocaine, pain killers, anything!

He just needed something.

Taehyung sadly knows these signs all too well and as much as Yeosang didn't want to, he helped him either way. He would pass a wet towel over his heated forehead, give him water, assure him that whatever he's hearing or seeing isn't there. Meanwhile Jungkook was doing the most in making sure he wasn't too heated with clothes due to his fever, massage his aching muscles and take him to trips on the bathroom to throw up to only bring him back passed out.

There's been times Yeosang would go on complete tantrum episode, pleading for the noises of gun shots to stop echoing his ears. He cried to the pain on his body, saying people are kicking him and he can feel it. He hallucinated many flashbacks and it was just so hard to calm him down when he was like this.

He desperately wanted a relief to his pain, for it to all go away.

One night when Jungkook and Taehyung were asleep on the couch, Yeosang sneaked into the bathroom in desperate search for any medicine at all, desperate for a relief to feel any type of drug in his body, but this time Jimin caught him. The other was in his usual conversation with Joshua but the second he saw Yeosang practically spazzing out on the floor, he hanged up the call and thought about dealing with the punishments it'll bring later.

It was almost heartbreaking see the younger boy sobbing for a relief to this feeling he couldn't even describe, nether the less did Jimin fucking understand what was going on. He didn't understand why the younger boy held onto him as if his life depended on it, sobbing to make it stop repeatedly, using his clammy hands to dig his fingers against Jimin's back as if he would fade away and then he'll go back to  being dragged to his own personal torment in his head.

Jimin didn't know what to do, so he hold held the boy back and tried to calm him down by telling him what's on their surroundings. A stupid thing he came up with on the spot, not knowing that being reminded of the present is exactly what Yeosang needed.

That didn't last too long before Jungkook woke up and pries Yeosang's body off Jimin, letting him scream and struggle in his arms as Jungkook wordlessly takes him back to the room, leaving Jimin absolutely breathless and speechless to what he just witnessed.

The first few nights was like this

And it went on.... For a whole week.

Well for the physical withdrawals.

Yeosang has stopped clawing his nails against his skin, vomiting, passing out, and feeling as though his nostrils were burning.

Now he would just have  heaps of anxiety attacks, insomnia and mental break downs from time to time.

One morning the three were passed out asleep on Jungkook's bed, the two elder males being a stone shield on either side of the fragile boy between them. At one point Yeosang began to start whimpering and twitching a lot in his sleep. Taehyung in his sleepy state raises a hand and tenderly caresses the side of his face, petting him like a small kitten to calm him down. Instantly Yeosang relaxed to the touch and fell back into a deep sleep, not slapping Taehyung's hand off of him.