Raw [Vkook]

80: I want to be free

Lost Boy - Ruth B.

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"Ow, Jimin! It's okay."

"Can you stay still!"

"But it hurts!"

The other male stares at him with a poker faced look, trying to edge the ice pack covered by a cloth to Yeosang's swollen cheek, that's now thankfully healing but a bruise is evidently there on his cheek.

Jungkook definitely crossed the line with this one.

He left an actual hideous bruise on Yeosang's face as though he was punched.

When Jimin first saw Yeosang after giving Taehyung an earful rant, keeping in mind to tell Jungkook the same thing when the two brothers finish up, the first thing he saw was how badly Yeosang was shaking as he storms into their room and a hand clasping over his cheek.

Both Taehyung and Jimin stared at him when he disappears behind the door, unable to say a single word. So Jimin had to put a pause on snapping at Jungkook for later as he instantly rushes into the room to see Yeosang on the floor, mumbling under his breath so many words that didn't make any sense.

Almost instantly Jimin was there to aid him but nearly had to hold himself from committing murder when he saw the swollen skin on Yeosang's cheek, hearing him mutter more clear now as he realized what he was saying.

"He's not my father."

He would repeat this to himself over and over, trying to not compare his brother's actions to a time in the past from his father. It took everything in Yeosang to not see Jungkook as cruel with the hideous flashbacks forcing into his mind of those fragile moments in his life, but with Jimin there to comfort him out of it, he managed to tear that thought out of his head.

Jungkook is nothing like his father.

He was just upset.

Jungkook is Jungkook, Yeosang's brother.

The two are not the same.

Now Jimin's here, pressing the pack of ice to his face but Yeosang is being a whiny baby to take it.

Perhaps he just wanted to Jimin to care for himself

Perhaps, that's not for certain yet.

"Oh stop it! It'll cool down the bruising," Jimin huffs, gently patting his cheek to be careful not to hurt him, even if he would flinch as though Jimin was dragging out a knife from his body, "The frying pan you used was my favorite one by the way."

Jimin's tempt to lighten the mood somewhat worked. Yeosang fights back a twitching smile but scoffs at him instead, looking at the wall, "That's the first thing I saw so I took it."

Jimin remains silent for a moment as he continues to pat his cheek gently with the bag, trying to keep his emotions at bay to what he's about to say next.

He knows of a fact Yeosang won't take this well.

"Yeosang...... I'm going to see Joshua today."

There was a moment that Yeosang was sat completely frozen still for a second. His lips were gapped, eyes raging in a mass whirl of emotions that was difficult to pick just one to express before snapping his head towards Jimin, his face completely twisting, "W-What? Jimin- Who? Can you please repeat that?"

Just as expected...

A solid shiver runs down Jimin's body and he instantly shakes his head, "I-It's not like that!" He says instantly, looking down to his feet, "I just..... I believe if I'm going to start the new year, I need to be freed from him. I need the closure, an apology, just something so I can finally move on without this weight in my shoulders. I want to finally just.... Not be afraid anymore."

Yeosang wants to actually start crying at this moment.

Why is his day just getting more and more fucked up.

First finding his brother naked on the bed free having sex with his so called friend, and now Jimin wanting this!

This feels so bizarre as it is.

"Closure, right," Yeosang huffs quietly, "That's what Jungkook and Taehyung said, look what happened to them."

Jimin drops his hand, eyebrows furrowed with a deep frown, "Hey watch your tongue. You honestly think I would go back to him after what happened?"

His voice was growing more panicked by this, instantly thinking that perhaps Yeosang thinks of him that way. It scared him. A lot.

He just..... Maybe this is a stupid idea-

Jimin blinks away from his rapid mind when Yeosang tenderly grabs his jaw, tilting his head to look into his sincere eyes, "I didn't mean it that way. I meant it that they are just hurting each other because of this barrier of emotions that they don't communicate through. For Joshua, I'm afraid that you won't get that closure since he most likely won't apologize and it will just hurt you."

This eased down more of Jimin's thoughts, relaxing his face to look down at the ice pack with a shakily quiver of his voice, "Thats why... I want you to come with me."

Yeosang's eyebrows furrowed in confusion, his hen dropping from Jimin's face, "What?"

"Come with me," Jimin says shakily, "I'm planning to go somewhere public so I can know he won't try something in the open. You don't have to be next to me, just be around on case... I won't be able to handle it and break."

There was a moment of a long pause in this and Jimin was beginning to slowly doubt himself in this. He needs this closure, he needs an apology, to face his fear and not be so damn afraid anymore.

That's all he needs.

So he can finally be free.

He just didn't want to do this alone.

The fear of Joshua is still there. He doesn't want Yeosang to get involved, just to be emotional support from a distance as Jimin does what he has to do.

And Yeosang seems to understand that.

So he gently takes one of Jimin's hands and nods, "Go go to a cafe, it's peaceful and public and there's no way he's going to try to raise his voice without causing a scene. Wherever you sit, I will be a few tables away, hidden from his sight but you will still see me. I won't get involved, but if you need me to take you out, just tap your table and we'll leave," He tells him calmly, rubbing his knuckle tenderly to help him stop shaking, "I know how hard this is going to be for you, but just know that it's okay to just.... Let it out, so it won't hurt so much once it's over."

That was all the reassurance Jimin needed to build his armor for his own personal battle.

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A/N:

What Jimin is about to do is........ So hard.

Facing one's abuser after what happened is near right terrifying. One doesn't know what to expect at all; if the abuser will try to have control again, if they will apologize, if they'll just disregard everything that happened, so many things could happen.

Some day I wish to be able to be strong enough to do that..... To get the closure I need too..... Guess I'm just not ready yet. It's not easy and it's very..... Overwhelming just thinking about it.

Let's see what happens ahead!!

I PURPLE YOU!! <3333