Raw [Vkook]

96: Understanding Everyone

Multi Perspectives! Including Taekook, let's goooo!!!

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One More Light - Linkin Park

Never had Jimin felt so mentally drained in his entirely life.

Sure he's been emotionally drained before, but having his mind fall completely blank from thoughts? Hurting to even think of anything at all?

That's something else.

And it's so...... Heavy.

This shouldn't be any different, he did come back from his father's house, which to his surprise his mother was there too, so feeling this way is something he should be adjusted to. They spoke to him over on his career, one that he's been debating with over and over again.

They're telling him to pursue the medical field like Yoongi, who's doing amazing in it, to keep up with the family name. You see, it's not that they were encouraging him on the matter, they were forcing him.

Get good grades.

Be a good students.

No bad attitude or he'll be a failure.

Now....... Now Jimin can't imagine himself in the future at this point. It's been a long time, so long, where Jimin has tried to picture a future for himself but he can't...... He doesn't see his future. He doesn't see himself growing older to have kids, let alone a family. He can't imagine himself having a stable career or working at all.

Jimin doesn't see himself..... At all.

He doesn't want to either.

What if that's a sign? That he's not going to make it to that point in life?

Should he meet it already instead of driving himself insane by being alive?

At this point, with his emotions and mental state being dim, he wouldn't mind it.

Yoongi has their parents, he doesn't need him, beside he's old enough to look after himself.

His family have this idea of him being an angel to do good things in life, achieve higher goals than anyone else. No one understands the pressure it sets onto him, to not disappoint anyone and do as they please. To be forced to be successful.

Even if he doesn't feel happy doing it.

Jungkook and Taehyung are now well arranged, they're doing good together so if Jimin is gone they won't be too sad since they have each other.

Yeosang...... Yeosang will move on.

There's more souls out there in life, he doesn't need Jimin.

No one needs Jimin.

Those words were like poison in Jimin's head for days, months, years, and it never goes away.

No one will ever know what it's like to be him, how heavy everything feels on his shoulders with the pressures of society from left and right.

He doesn't want to be selfish and end it, but would it really be selfish?

How can he live for others and not for himself?

What type of life is that?

To make others happy and please them, but not doing it for yourself..... That's not living.

That's like being a prisoner with the door open but with chains on his wrists, the key being on the palm of his hand. He knows if he sets himself free, he will leave the safe haven of the cage forever. He's there to keep the chains company.