Raw [Vkook]

42 (Pt. 1): Childhood Triggers

Lovely - Billie Eilish & Khalid

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Jimin follows with his eyes as the two angry boys leaves the dorm, looking back at Yeosang when the door slams just with his own annoyed pursed lips.

"Now what was that!"

He deserved an explanation! This was his damn dorm too!

However Yeosang wasn't looking at him, he was glaring at Joshua with slight squinted eyes. He didn't say anything, only puts his earphones on and got lost with the music, avoiding answering Jimin's question. He could see from the corner of his eye how Jimin only scoffs and walks with Joshua to his room with the door shut, and that's when his mind began to wander to other issues.

Yeosang hates being alone, since he thinks too much, but during those moments, he gets to see from the outside.

He doesn't trust Taehyung.

The guy took care of him, really good care of him when he needed it, but that doesn't mean he will trust him.

There's something about his and Jungkook's whatever affair they have that he doesn't like or can stand. It just all feels so..... Odd?

Yeosang has thought that perhaps it was just the fact it was his brother and he's being protective, but he knows he has his reasons to be protective.

Especially after all the shit that they experienced.

Yeosang doesn't trust anyone, and perhaps because in his mind, they're all a little bit like his father. Eventually, they'll snap and take it out on anyone in their path.

Just like with Taehyung.

Sure, he's human, good for him, but sometimes Yeosang can't shrug off familiar patterns that appear like warning signs in his head to whatever Taehyung says or does.

Yeosang's father was always kind before a beating. He would always assure them a better day before throwing a beer bottle to their face if they pissed him off.

Yeosang hates kindness, it's always before an explosion occurred.

Just like what happened today.

Yeosang doesn't trust people. He doesn't trust people taking care of him. He doesn't trust people smiling at him. He doesn't trust people touching him. He doesn't trust anyone besides his siblings and Woosung - who is like a brother to him.

Yeosang knows this isn't normal, that he should get over it, that familiar patterns aren't always an indication of familiar outcome and that everyone is different, but that's all he knows.

He grew up watching his siblings suffer because of those patterns, so he doesn't trust anyone around them.

He just knows that Jungkook is going to get hurt, and Yeosang doesn't know if he'll have it in him to hold himself back from actually killing Taehyung.

You see, that's the funny thing about his personal relationship with Jungkook. He can think of many people he would rather be around with than him, but if someone hurts him....

Yeosang shakes the thought from his head, not wanting to think of that one dumbass - well dead dumbass- that had the audacity to speak low of him.

That was the murder investigation Iodine was talking about.

Taehyung was lucky that Jungkook cares about him, if not he would've ended up like poor Max, only left as a case with no trace back to him.

Just for being suspicious and lashing out that tongue to his brother.