Hate to love

Chapter 12

Savannah's POV

I tumbled out of bed.

My head still hurt so bad.

My movie premiere was two days before.

I really shouldn't have let Ceejay talk me into having a party yesterday.

Or drinking during the party.

Asshole.

I headed downstairs and saw everyone sitting down to breakfast.

Wait. WHAT?!

"What's the occasion?" I asked.

Mum looked hurt I asked but you can't blame me.

We hadn't eaten together since I was seven.

Since she left.

I sat  down and mum put my plate in front of me.

"I added honey, your favourite."

I smiled at her so I didn't hurt her feelings.

I am allergic to honey.

I glanced at Ceejay, pleading with him silently.

He swapped our plates secretly.

Mum had given him blueberry syrup.

My favourite.

We finished up with breakfast.

"Fizzy, do you want me to carry you to school."

My head snapped up.

She was the only one who had called me that.

Why was he bringing back memories.

"Let's go."

I entered the car and he drove off.

This was the longest car ride of my life.

Dad kept talking and laughing with himself.

It was weird and painful to watch.

"Okay. Stop!"

The car drew to a sudden halt.

"That's enough dad. I get it. Its today. Today is her death anniversary. You don't have to pretend that everything is okay. I know its not. You loved her. We all did. Its okay to show us you're still hurt cuz we still are."

Dad suddenly started crying.

I understood.

She had been his favourite child.

I was just seven yet I had known.

We all had.

Dad dropped me off on the road like I asked.

I walked over to a flower shop and bought white lilies.

Her favourite flower.

I headed over to the cemetery and went over to her tombstone.

It read Ariana Sierra Javanno

My best friend.

My sister.

My whole world.

My playmate.

My idol

She was one year older than me and a year younger than Ceejay.

When we were little, she had this crazy idea to mash up our names together so she was Ajay, I was Sanjay and Cedric was Ceejay.

Ceejay kept the name.