Nawalan na ako ng gana sa lahat. Hindi ko alam kung tutuloy pa ba ako bukas o hindi na.
But I know that I need to face him I need to clarify things.
Clarify? Do I need to do that? Kung malinaw na sa aking talagang pinaglaruan niya lang ako.
I saw all of the teddy bears, ang dami nila inipon ko sila. Kasama ko siya ng mapanalunan namin ito. I can't still believe that all of this happened so fast.
Parang kailan lang ay ang saya namin tapos biglang ganito. The Destiny really hates me huh!
I didn't do anything wrong in fact I just love him! Bakit ganito ang sukli?!
"Anak?! Papasok ako" hindi ako nag Abalang magsalita .
"I heard the news , he played you?" Tanong ni mommy. Napatango ako habang malakas pa rin na umiiyak.
She holds my hands as he caress my cheeks.
"If its hurt too bad let him go," umiling ako. Hindi ko kaya. I can't.
"I can't mom, I love him too much" wika ko. Ngumiti saakin si mommy.
"Loving the person who is not really for you will only hurt you Alexa" malungkot na wika ni mommy.
"Just like I did, I don't want you to love a person who are not capable of loving you back alam ko masakit but eventually you will learn to deal with it" puro lang iyak ang nagawa ko.
"I want you to have someone that will going to love you just like how your dad did to me" nag simulang manubig ang mata ni mommy.
"Let me tell you a story, I was at your age when I met my first love, He treat like I'm nothing , he hates me. One day he approached me syempre natuwa ako. He said that he wants me to be his friend I agreed " wika ni mommy.
"Napaka saya ko ng magsimula ng lumalim ang relasyon namin. Niligawan niya ako, syempre mahal ko I said yes , my happiness didn't last long my whole world break as I saw him marrying someone else in front of the church " wika ni mommy at tumingin sa ceiling.
"He marry another girl while he left all of his promise hanging" I felt sad for her. Mom gone through a lot.
"I'm his girlfriend that time, I found out that he was already engaged when he was pursuing me. He was destined to be in the arms of Someone else not mine. Pero tinanggap ko , I move forward" ngumiti si Mommy.
"And do you know who I am referring to?" Tanong niya umiling naman ako sakanya.
"Montemayor his my first love" wika ni mom. Natuptop ko ang aking bibig sa narinig.
"Your tito Alexa, Ace father" wika ni mommy.
"But my love story didn't end there, Years passed I met your father. He is my greatest love Alexa. Marami ka pang makikilala. And choose wisely, choose the one who can break the whole world just for you not the person who can just give you the world" wika ni mom.
"Sometimes a villain is better than the Hero" wika ni mom. So my father was the villain? And tito was the hero? How?
"Huh? Do you mean that daddy is the villain and tito is the Hero?" Tanong ko. Tumango si mommy. How?!
"How? Diba si tito ang nanakit?" Tanong ko ngumiti siya .
"Your father set up everything, jyo didn't really want to marry her. He was sets up. His parents told him to marry her for partnership and guess who's offer is that, to your father" napanganga naman ako sa sinabi ni mommy.
Is she serious?
"That's why, Choose the right person that you know that loves you , ang importante ay mahal ka" wika ni mommy.
Napatigil naman ako sa pag iyak dahil sa aking narinig. Totoo?
" Oh? Are you still going to cry there? Looking so hagard and Stress out?" Tanong ni mommy ngumiti ako ng pilit.
"Pack your things go to your outing you should show them their loss" wika ni mommy ay hinalikan ako sa Noo.
"Sleep Good night " wika ni mommy. Ngumiti naman ako.
"Thank you and Good night mommy" wika ko. Umalis siya sa kwarto.
Ever since dad died mom always cry silently , sometimes I heard her crying as she holds my father's photo.
Mom loves daddy so much. Kaya ng mawala siya saamin ay parang nawala na rin lahat.
Mayroon parin sakit sa tuwing naaalala ko lahat ng pinagsamahan namin ni Ace. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang isipin kung hindi ako umamin Nong araw na iyon sana ay mas masaya kami ngayon.
Sana ay hindi ako napaglaruan ng ganito. But destiny makes its way.
Siguro kung hindi ako naging tanga nga oras na iyon ay hindi kami magkakaganito.
He was my first love . He was my first bestfriend. Sakanya lang umiikot ang buong school life ko noon hanggang ngayon.
Kahit masungit siya minahal ko pa rin. Kaso uto uto ako. Kaya ito nasasaktan.
Sabrina, I didn't do anything to you why did you do this? I just want to be happy! I thought it was my turn sayo pa rin pala!
Naiyak naman ako. Pinagalitan ko ang sarili ko. But I realized that the pain will not fade away quickly.
I'll wait for the greatest love that mom told me. The love that will going to destroy the world just to be with me.
"Loving you is enough for me Ace . Playing with me was the most painful thing you've ever done to me. "
"Pain , will change everything, tommorow"
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POWER AND HEARTACHE: My Heartless SSG President (under Revision)
RandomAlexa Raphiel Vargas, a respected gang leader, finds herself tormented by unrequited love for the enigmatic and heartless SSG president, Matthew Ace Montemayor. Despite her attempts to forget him by reinventing herself, Ace's sudden realization of h...
