I had an uneasy feeling about going to do what we had to do .
Something in my head kept telling me "sit by the window , sit by the window.
True sat by the window , he was locked up for some time . He ain't been in a shoot out in so long , he could be hit easily .
Me being me , I nudged him so if anything was gone happen , I'd rather it happen to me .
At first he wouldn't let me get next to the window but I knew I had to just in case .
The nigga shot me and I kept shooting back till I felt like I couldn't breath .
I knew this was the end so I just let it be . I could hear their faint voices as I tried to keep my eyes open.
"Ej." True tapped me.
"He hit?" Liko said.
"Ughhh." I groaned and Liko pulled off .
"Keep him awake." Kaci said .
I died in the hospital , the surgery ain't work and I feel like they didn't even try to keep me alive .
True felt as if it was his fault for letting me sit by the window but I wanted to , I couldn't take another death .
My oldest brother died getting shot , not on my daddy side but my mama side . I was 15 when he died , he was 17 , we was always close .
His funeral I held back from crying in front of everybody but when I got home reality hit and I broke down. I punched holes in the wall , broke a tv , broke glass , I couldn't control it.
I got locked up 2 months later , I just ain't care about life at that point , I went in for 5 months then got out .
True got locked up at 15 right after I got out and that made it worse cause I knew what they was tryna do .
I chose to be there for him the most and we grew closer and closer than how we was before I went in .
I would always go to visit him as much as I could but when he went to prison I had fell off cause it was far but I still went when I could .
Once he got out , I made it a must for me to protect him at all costs cause he was the youngest only by 2 weeks but I still felt as though I should .
So when the voice told me to move by the window I knew it was something I had to do , I knew the costs but I had to protect him because if I lost another person I knew I probably would have lost it.
I knew I had to let True know somehow that this wasn't his fault and he did what he had to do .
Same thing with Ziyir , it was my time to go and not his but he felt that he shouldnt have survived and I should have .
Can't go back and change what's already been done.
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Another chapter coming later , only cause this short .
This ass cause how do you write from a dead person POV? Idk .
